random snippets

the holidays have just begun
and i'm already bored of it.

close friends will find it as no surprise. haha! i'm easily entertained as well as easily bored. ACK!~ just registered with the local fitness center to pursue my life-long battle with my weight. decided to invest in another business other than to my current one. hopefully, it works out before i graduate and i do get outta this college.

oh! i recently was given the opportunity to drive the brand new Brabus Mercedes-Benz E-class. eeeeee! its interior is just so beautiful! and gosh! to drive it is pure pleasure... the sound of the engine is a soft purr - can be barely heard unless u purposely revv. but like every other Merc, its the most sure-footed vehicle. pretty darn spacious and i love the near classic looks. i hate tiny sport cars. hate it. prefer high performance and luxury sedans.

so i've re-organized my room. i like doing silly things like that. not sure why. i'm sumwad convinced its still due to boredom. i've got the prospects of becoming some feng-shui master soon. teehee!

and i came across my really old diary. the one i had back in primary school! my handwriting was horrible. it was considered pretty back then but now, yuck. i wrote so much about wad i did at home rather than in school! it was so obvious i hated school! hahaha! and when this older guy in standard 6 gave me a plastic ring which encased a rose inside and a small bouquet of flowers for valentine's day. awww! i dun really remember how that happened but yeah... it was really funny! i was laughing so hard at my diary. i'm not saying his name tho. but will try to find on facebook! XP hadnt spoken to him in years! i did have his frenster. but tht was so long ago!

remembering grandma

when i think of grandma, i wud think of the times she cooked, knitted and taught. she was the ultimate superwoman ;) she can make up her own perfume, lotion, and she shud've been the spokesperson for Johnson & Johnson's. her skin can beat any of us grandchildren, hands down - smoothness and fairness.

grandma was pretty much a mom that i never had, to me.
i was never really close to my mom, nor do i think i ever will be. maybe its cuz mom refused to let me board the first available flight to KL when i got the news that grandma's condition had turned for the worse.

thus, we had a screaming match and the worst thing was mom said : "i told you the last time that ur grandma is ok. see? u went back for nothing! so you dont need to go back so fast."

F#$@$%^!? thats probably what i'd nvr forgive mom for the rest of my life.

i truly believe God was by grandma's side. the times when i went back to visit her, grandma always seemed happy and well-taken care of. i thank God that i had the chance to take care of her too while in the hospital. she kept talking throughout the night, daddy wud accompany me of course. dad wud ask grandma if she remembered me doing silly things and grandma wud nod her head or say things like " yes. remember." and when she randomly said "jialat promise" then i held her hand and recited every promise i made with her - to study hard, to not fight with my sisters, to call her more, visit her often, to lose weight and always take care of my dad. holding her hand, being able to spend that precious few hours in the middle of the night with her is truly priceless and i'd cherish it forever.

yes, grandma. i do promise you all these.
i just wished i had arrived at the hospital earlier - an hour, a day or even the week before. now all i ever wished was i had told you "i love you" more often.

i'm now left wit memories of her, the sweaters she knitted, presents she gave, and lessons taught.

during the funeral, the amount of people that came for the two days were overwhelming. and even more that came while she was at the hospital. enuff said. she was my grandma and i was truly blessed to be one of her grandchildren.