catching up on the past

just realised that i've been so caught up with college, work and my other blog, thus neglecting my own personal one. sigh... poor baby~

hopefully this is goin to be my final year in college. there is no way i am goin to survive another resit or repeating subject. i screwed up in the first year, i'm definitely hoping i wont do it again. i was all fired up for this semester at first! i was enjoying attending classes, reading thru notes and believe it or not, yes i do my tutorials. haha

it got all dampened when grandma was admitted into the hospital. she's terminal now... seeing her now, on the bed with tubes makes me wished i had another chance of knowing her so much more. it was only in the recent three years that i began to really enjoy spending time with her. all these while, i was always afraid of her. no surprise cuz i was a reli noti kid. i guess goin back for a week to see her made me just give up on trying to catch up with lectures and revision.i did consider briefly to give up on college. cuz i dont see the use of it? i dun see how the weird subjects like managing I.S and Ethnics are gonna help me in the future.

i enjoy working wit my dad, except for the rare few outbursts. overall, i'm pretty darn satisfied working wit dad. why? (this shud be printed for mom to see!) cuz dad lets me have my own way of getting the job done, he knows how busy i am in college, and work doesnt have to be in the office all the time. extra perks wud definitely be the good pay n time to share a laugh or more. gawd, i effing am reluctant of working for mom.

nearly kidnapped

surviving a almost-hijacked/kidnap case, i thank God and the rare few Malaysians who are helpful! not kepo's!

after work at the tuition center, Tyler called me to go over to Warisan Square for tea at Secret Recipe along with Olivia. probably one of the longest and closest friendships i have in college thus far. i'd do almost anything for these two darlings!

met up with them and gosh, i had fun just talking to them! i had ice cream! YUM! so long since i had one! bliss! then all of it got cut short by mom's sms asking me to get my butt home that very instant! argh!!!!


so i said my goodbyes and left in a hurry. i walked by a black man when he smiled and said : "hey baby" and i just gave a quick smile as i would any other stranger/tourist. so i continued walking quickly towards my car when from the corner of my eye, i noticed his white pants. obviously following me so i had no choice but to run for the car. i might have panicked for a while cuz i cudnt open the door but when i did, i quickly got in but before i cud slam and lock the door, he'd already yanked it open.

there i was screaming OHMYGAWD HELP ME! OHMYGAWD! when he pushed me towards the passenger seat. but i held on to the steering wheel and sat on the middle compartment where the buttons and gear stick was. i kept kicking his legs and tried to aim for the stomach, while pressing on the honk. the black man kept saying a variation of : " keep it down, baby! shut up! you better be quiet, baby! " all the time i was screaming and cudnt help thinking i was goin to die.

he ignited the mercedez when i was able to finally step on the honk. this was where i cudnt care less if he saw my underwear and i kicked his stomach again.

FINALLY! i get to experience the legendary helpfulness of malaysians! two guys came running and ... the negro got out of the car and tried slamming the car door at me! cutting the story short, reporting to the police is by far the biggest waste of time and energy. i only dream of the day that we all wud feel that reporting wud do any gud.

for now, be super careful gurlies. and never reject a guy's offer of accompanying you to ur car even if its a lovely town as KK or as tomboyish as me.

no youngster can throw a better party than the older generation. heck, daddy's bday party was a blast. loved it. absolutely happy for him =) gotta admit, a tad jealous! hahaa!

maybe its got something to do with the location, company invited and the yummy food. but i really do think its just because of the ever so-lovable daddy himself. he chose the venue and food himself. invited only his best buddies. awww... and he particularly likes having a bar, the outdoor patio and loads of karaoke. his close friend, uncle tony decided him to get him a whole lamb, which i was surprised to hear such a cute present. hahaha!

i got to meet alot of uncles and aunties which i havent seen for a really long time! gosh... most of them have changed alot. i cant really say how they've changed but *winks* i think u can think of the appropriate word.

daddy had loads of fun singing and catching up wit old buddies. gosh... all his friends can really sing very well. one of his female staff even sang a very flirty happy birthday song~! not bad eh? a few of Sabah's leading politicians and ex-gangstars also came and more of those die-hard old party people filled the club house. then the rest of the night was filled with many happy oldie mouldy songs + drinking + overdose of laughing and the glorious glorious food and drinks.

joyce, nikki (our god-sister) and i even sang a couple of times. teeheee~! owh... mom too! *rolls on the floor laughing*

weird moment right now

HAPPY KEAMATAN, all my Sabahan friends!
may this year bring you better and more bountiful harvest!
*tho i do doubt any of you still plant padi, right? dont count your grandparents ah!*

it was when i was enjoying the beauty of mother nature at Pitas,
three hours away from the famed Kudat - the tip of Borneo.
when i suddenly realised.... i miss him.

*do stop reading from here if you do not like me being slightly emo*

i miss the times when i had with him,
talking about anything!
watching movies, trying out the oddest looking restaurants,
going shopping...
its been weeks since i last thought about him...
damnit!

how does someone forget the another?
i really admire those who can just get over it and move on
not feeling abit of sadness or missing those times.
how do they do it?

*dont answer this question unless you really can do tht*

there was this phrase i heard over in the radio
just a few days ago....
" you have to date sumone absolutely wrong for you at least once,
for two reasons. one, for experience and two,to appreciate the good one "
*pretty much like common knowledge...it brought out the 'd'oh!' in me*

cant the wrong guy be the right guy?
at least now i know that for all the wrong reasons,
the outcome wasnt always bad.

past in a flash!

it did occur to me that i've neglected my blog alot recently. and i often thought, omg... how do i start? loads have happened. gosh!

if i recall correctly,

• had northern Indian cuisine at Waterfront wit daddy to celebrate bday! *love*

• my awesome friends threw me the funniest and unforgettable surprise bday bash for me at my fav hangout place - Fruit Monster! i appreciate it peeps!
  

• celebrated my bday with family+stepsisters wit a night of dancing and loadsa bbq food!
  

• i had a major temper outburst in college at a junior which surprised alot of ppl. but seriously, why be surprised?

• even more surprisingly, i decided to do other things than to help in the upcoming orientation... frens knew that i always wanted to join again to help.

• had loads of fun with my sister Mandy, who was back fer a few days from KL

• went on a super fun roadtrip to Labuan wif zavier n tyler. i likey the speedboat too!

• met up wit ronald, stayed at Fuxien's place, ate at chow's restaurant ... amongst other fun stuff in labuan like, satays and uber cheap chocs+alcohol!
  

• first day of a new semester! yay! finally back to books once again! teehee!

i do dread reading an awful lot. so i decided to put it in point-form. ^.^v

more or so... i noe

in two days i'll know the outcome of the youth camp we're currently organizing. in two days, i'll know if all the sacrifices made by my team and i was worth it. i'll know who are truly supporting me and really wanting to see this succeed.

if i fight for what i want, it'd look selfish but then again, i think alot of people would hv done the same if they were in my shoes. but then again, people are very bias or narrow minded here. they gossip like old women and somehow, unintentionally they go all out to sabotage your reputation.

its not like i do this to solely benefit myself... i do admit it does benefit me in some ways but at least i try my best to benefit others too! and in most situations, i let others benefit more!

i'm actually getting lost. no longer encouraged or motivated or even interested to be involved in anything, even in planning or being a leader. being accused of being selfish or inconsiderate of others, hurts like hell. i wished i wasn't the chairperson/president/leader in the first place. but then again, its inevitable right? for years, i've tried being the follower... it just nvr worked... i'm just slightly discouraged and more likely, emo. hahaha...

i see no wrong in it

i think its sumthing to be happy about ;)
i reli doubt its sumthing to be pitied, saddened or ashamed about...
i mean, think about it!
single people have accomplished so much more than couples have!
minus the petty arguments and headache of accommodating each others time/space
sure~ some of you would say : its not a stressful! not a burden!
the popular mandarin phrase applies here...
"i'll listen to you now. dont let me catch you complaining later on."


some might call me a hypocrite.
boo hoo~
i've always said : i wanna have a longlasting relationship
but in reality, i've been relationship-hopping
well, the reason i do what i did is
all in the name of educational purposes
>;P


i'm just no longer interested in wasting my youth
no, i have not become some desperate
sick psychotic relationship-love-attention serial junkie!
life's too short, people!
presented with a chance?
me thinks tht moderate consideration is sufficient,
jump on it and enjoy!

my theory is when i hv so much to give
why hold it back?
though i still hold on to my principles.
i never said i loved you.

hairy godmother

"erm... i think i want my hair with layers and thinner?"

"layers ah? boleh bah~ tak mau buat rebonding? kasi thinner rambut nanti rebonding tak cantik! terlalu flat!"

" APA? FAT!?"

"flat bah~ FLAT! apala kamu ni! bukan gemuk! rambut macam mana boleh gemuk!"

"oOoO! haha! flat~~~ how i know la? okok... then u do la. tahu tahu already kan?"

" ya bah."

"eh! oh yeah! i want to cut short abit. around here! " *points shoulder*

"cut short again? tak mau! tak boleh! "

" haaa? wat? cut until here only la! nuthin much la! haha "

" tak mau! tak cantik! last time i cut your hair short, not nice. tak mau! "

this amazing woman,Watty is the hairstylist that i've remained loyal to for... four years? a world record in my books. no other hairstylist had been in my books for more than two visits. heehee! i guess i prefer those who have their own opinion without being too cocky.

Watty had seen my super curly hairy-days back in form four. i guess she knew how to handle my hair-raising probs =) just about 7 months ago, i was in an emotional wreck. i went to Watty and demanded : "cut it very short, thin and i want long wispy bangs." i flopped down on her comfy chair and she said : " you sure? menyesal tu..." one look at my no-nonsense face, she quickly did as bid. i thought it was a job well done. tho she didnt reli cut it as short as i wanted. i think she knew it'd ruin her efforts for the last three years in persuading to leave my hair longer so that she can curl it - her dream wah... so she says la! i think she wants to charge me more then! hahaha!

but i was regretful three months later as the short hair grew longer touching my shoulders. it was a utter mess! i went back to Watty and she gave me the i-told-you-so! grin.

for prom, she straightened and did a sassy flip to one side. just wad i would like! then for freshie night, volumnised hair. so simple but i love! then for the freshie night i was co-organizing, she did beautiful soft curls with abit of brown highlights. i just loooove her! for one of my uncle's daughter's wedding, she braided and made my hair wavy! she's like my hairy godmother! heehe! anyway, i'm waiting for my hair to grow a lil longer to do the have the zigzag layers! or i wanna highlight it purple! or shud i curl it like wad Watty wants?

glamness i antied

driving a Mercedes, Range Rover or a Land Cruiser to college may sound glam n fun n oh-so-cool... but ladies n gentlemen, in reality it is NOT! i'd rather drive the Toyota HiLux, Royal Saloon, or the Saga!

Why!?

i hate cars that silently exude glam-ness or anything to do with $ when in college. its just sumthing i hated since primary school. i guess its sumthing to do when people expect sumthing from you thanks to materialistic stuff. like today, a junior came up to my fren and said, "eh, tell your friend i wanna drive her car le! " that is just one of the many examples...

honestly, i dunno if i shud feel insulted or proud or... i just dont feel good. i'd just rather not drive these cars! i guess i'm still very much in love with my first car, the Proton Wira. hehehe! no stress no fuss nothing. it's like i can trash the darn thing if i wanted to and it wont hurt. if i had a scratch or drove unto a curb, i'd feel so guilt-ridden.

btw... i noticed i havent gotten myself any new shoes yet! GAH! the pain of being fussy and having wide feet! but i got lotsa nu clothes! hehehe... after hours and days and weeks of hunting... sumhow forgot shoes! silly me. after exams, gotta go ransack some of me fave stores! teehee~

extreme opposites

dont you just hate people that... well, use you? they're all nice and helpful at first, but when they achieve wad they want, they suddenly fling you aside and call you up only when they need you once again? gowd, i hate it.

worse is, when you cant say no to them...cuz seriously, i have no heart to do that to them and heck, i'm pretty much a softie. anyone watched YesMan with Jim Carey in it? yeah... i'm one of the many mad followers of being a Yes(wo)Man!

yea... i'm a really bitter friend when it comes to this certain two people. both of them are EXACTLY the same! they would, as i see it, slowly try their utmost best to become your very close fren, help you, accompany you, and i think all these while, these two were jsut trying to get info and get closer to one another via me... now they've hooked up. yea... both of them are opposite genders! but they're exactly the same! now that they have each other, they seemed to have forgotten everyone including me and our group of friends! they would decline going out with us but when they do have a problem, such as they had a argument or other minor couple-related-problems, both of them wud be hopping/jumping/prancing back to us! wad the f*** la!

i hate it but i dont have the heart to say no. please! tell me wad d F do i do!?

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on a more cheerful note, OMG! SEVEN ROSES?! a rose a day!? madness.... i'll leeave it to you to guess where and whom i got the roses from eh? muahx! <3>

love love love



blood red, orangey yellow, light yellow, pure white, pinky white, light pink and the .... i'm sorry, the light red rose crumbled! sobs!