sweet smell of freedom

down in the dumps

2009-12-19T08:14:00.000-08:00

to make this really short : i was depressed, lacked motivation and i gave up.

for those who need slightly more details, read on~

it all started with the biological clock within me goin haywire. source of the haywiring? the multitudes of personal and public problems that just keep coming at the same time. there is only so much a girl can handle. i'm no superwoman. sigh.. nopes.

with that screwed up, i begin to miss classes or skip them entirely. except for finance subjects, i'm pretty confident my other subjects wudnt suffer. but lo and behold, the unexpected blow. Marketing lecturer - Ms.Helen calls me up to the lecturer's office to have a talk before she decides to bar me from exams or not. maybe she doesnt know me well, cant blame her, i never had the honor of being in her classes before until this semester.

the other lecturers know my nature far too well --> late but i WILL be there. ABSENT but i will study. TALK but i'll catch up. SLEEPING but that would mean i've already read thru it, or i'm just plain sleepy and i want my attendance!

asides college, i have a budgeoning sister problem, and the sudden stress of being the only business-oriented daughter. oddly, i'm the only one stuck ard my parents. so who do they need on their beck and call? go figures.

therefore, i took the withdraw forms from the college office, enquired the staff and ignored the various tricks that they tried to used on me to stop me from withdrawing. funnily, just when i was nearly leaving the office, Ms.Chan- finance lecturer spoke to me and sumhow, i always had a soft spot for her as well as Mr.Tsen - economics lecturer.

sure. there are other reasons to why i'm so strung up. but this is wad makes me ME, i'm quite private. and i'll like to keep it that way :) a clue? i WAS a big a fan of meeting my one true love. note: past tense.

random snippets

2009-09-21T22:16:00.000-07:00

the holidays have just begun
and i'm already bored of it.

close friends will find it as no surprise. haha! i'm easily entertained as well as easily bored. ACK!~ just registered with the local fitness center to pursue my life-long battle with my weight. decided to invest in another business other than to my current one. hopefully, it works out before i graduate and i do get outta this college.

oh! i recently was given the opportunity to drive the brand new Brabus Mercedes-Benz E-class. eeeeee! its interior is just so beautiful! and gosh! to drive it is pure pleasure... the sound of the engine is a soft purr - can be barely heard unless u purposely revv. but like every other Merc, its the most sure-footed vehicle. pretty darn spacious and i love the near classic looks. i hate tiny sport cars. hate it. prefer high performance and luxury sedans.

so i've re-organized my room. i like doing silly things like that. not sure why. i'm sumwad convinced its still due to boredom. i've got the prospects of becoming some feng-shui master soon. teehee!

and i came across my really old diary. the one i had back in primary school! my handwriting was horrible. it was considered pretty back then but now, yuck. i wrote so much about wad i did at home rather than in school! it was so obvious i hated school! hahaha! and when this older guy in standard 6 gave me a plastic ring which encased a rose inside and a small bouquet of flowers for valentine's day. awww! i dun really remember how that happened but yeah... it was really funny! i was laughing so hard at my diary. i'm not saying his name tho. but will try to find on facebook! XP hadnt spoken to him in years! i did have his frenster. but tht was so long ago!

remembering grandma

2009-09-16T01:15:00.000-07:00

when i think of grandma, i wud think of the times she cooked, knitted and taught. she was the ultimate superwoman ;) she can make up her own perfume, lotion, and she shud've been the spokesperson for Johnson & Johnson's. her skin can beat any of us grandchildren, hands down - smoothness and fairness.

grandma was pretty much a mom that i never had, to me.
i was never really close to my mom, nor do i think i ever will be. maybe its cuz mom refused to let me board the first available flight to KL when i got the news that grandma's condition had turned for the worse.

thus, we had a screaming match and the worst thing was mom said : "i told you the last time that ur grandma is ok. see? u went back for nothing! so you dont need to go back so fast."

F#$@$%^!? thats probably what i'd nvr forgive mom for the rest of my life.

i truly believe God was by grandma's side. the times when i went back to visit her, grandma always seemed happy and well-taken care of. i thank God that i had the chance to take care of her too while in the hospital. she kept talking throughout the night, daddy wud accompany me of course. dad wud ask grandma if she remembered me doing silly things and grandma wud nod her head or say things like " yes. remember." and when she randomly said "jialat promise" then i held her hand and recited every promise i made with her - to study hard, to not fight with my sisters, to call her more, visit her often, to lose weight and always take care of my dad. holding her hand, being able to spend that precious few hours in the middle of the night with her is truly priceless and i'd cherish it forever.

yes, grandma. i do promise you all these.
i just wished i had arrived at the hospital earlier - an hour, a day or even the week before. now all i ever wished was i had told you "i love you" more often.

i'm now left wit memories of her, the sweaters she knitted, presents she gave, and lessons taught.

during the funeral, the amount of people that came for the two days were overwhelming. and even more that came while she was at the hospital. enuff said. she was my grandma and i was truly blessed to be one of her grandchildren.

catching up on the past

2009-08-23T05:40:00.000-07:00

just realised that i've been so caught up with college, work and my other blog, thus neglecting my own personal one. sigh... poor baby~

hopefully this is goin to be my final year in college. there is no way i am goin to survive another resit or repeating subject. i screwed up in the first year, i'm definitely hoping i wont do it again. i was all fired up for this semester at first! i was enjoying attending classes, reading thru notes and believe it or not, yes i do my tutorials. haha

it got all dampened when grandma was admitted into the hospital. she's terminal now... seeing her now, on the bed with tubes makes me wished i had another chance of knowing her so much more. it was only in the recent three years that i began to really enjoy spending time with her. all these while, i was always afraid of her. no surprise cuz i was a reli noti kid. i guess goin back for a week to see her made me just give up on trying to catch up with lectures and revision.i did consider briefly to give up on college. cuz i dont see the use of it? i dun see how the weird subjects like managing I.S and Ethnics are gonna help me in the future.

i enjoy working wit my dad, except for the rare few outbursts. overall, i'm pretty darn satisfied working wit dad. why? (this shud be printed for mom to see!) cuz dad lets me have my own way of getting the job done, he knows how busy i am in college, and work doesnt have to be in the office all the time. extra perks wud definitely be the good pay n time to share a laugh or more. gawd, i effing am reluctant of working for mom.

nearly kidnapped

2009-07-13T05:38:00.000-07:00

surviving a almost-hijacked/kidnap case, i thank God and the rare few Malaysians who are helpful! not kepo's!

after work at the tuition center, Tyler called me to go over to Warisan Square for tea at Secret Recipe along with Olivia. probably one of the longest and closest friendships i have in college thus far. i'd do almost anything for these two darlings!

met up with them and gosh, i had fun just talking to them! i had ice cream! YUM! so long since i had one! bliss! then all of it got cut short by mom's sms asking me to get my butt home that very instant! argh!!!!

so i said my goodbyes and left in a hurry. i walked by a black man when he smiled and said : "hey baby" and i just gave a quick smile as i would any other stranger/tourist. so i continued walking quickly towards my car when from the corner of my eye, i noticed his white pants. obviously following me so i had no choice but to run for the car. i might have panicked for a while cuz i cudnt open the door but when i did, i quickly got in but before i cud slam and lock the door, he'd already yanked it open.

there i was screaming OHMYGAWD HELP ME! OHMYGAWD! when he pushed me towards the passenger seat. but i held on to the steering wheel and sat on the middle compartment where the buttons and gear stick was. i kept kicking his legs and tried to aim for the stomach, while pressing on the honk. the black man kept saying a variation of : " keep it down, baby! shut up! you better be quiet, baby! " all the time i was screaming and cudnt help thinking i was goin to die.

he ignited the mercedez when i was able to finally step on the honk. this was where i cudnt care less if he saw my underwear and i kicked his stomach again.

FINALLY! i get to experience the legendary helpfulness of malaysians! two guys came running and ... the negro got out of the car and tried slamming the car door at me! cutting the story short, reporting to the police is by far the biggest waste of time and energy. i only dream of the day that we all wud feel that reporting wud do any gud.

for now, be super careful gurlies. and never reject a guy's offer of accompanying you to ur car even if its a lovely town as KK or as tomboyish as me.

2009-06-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

no youngster can throw a better party than the older generation. heck, daddy's bday party was a blast. loved it. absolutely happy for him =) gotta admit, a tad jealous! hahaa!

maybe its got something to do with the location, company invited and the yummy food. but i really do think its just because of the ever so-lovable daddy himself. he chose the venue and food himself. invited only his best buddies. awww... and he particularly likes having a bar, the outdoor patio and loads of karaoke. his close friend, uncle tony decided him to get him a whole lamb, which i was surprised to hear such a cute present. hahaha!

i got to meet alot of uncles and aunties which i havent seen for a really long time! gosh... most of them have changed alot. i cant really say how they've changed but *winks* i think u can think of the appropriate word.

daddy had loads of fun singing and catching up wit old buddies. gosh... all his friends can really sing very well. one of his female staff even sang a very flirty happy birthday song~! not bad eh? a few of Sabah's leading politicians and ex-gangstars also came and more of those die-hard old party people filled the club house. then the rest of the night was filled with many happy oldie mouldy songs + drinking + overdose of laughing and the glorious glorious food and drinks.

joyce, nikki (our god-sister) and i even sang a couple of times. teeheee~! owh... mom too! *rolls on the floor laughing*

weird moment right now

2009-05-31T00:58:00.000-07:00

HAPPY KEAMATAN, all my Sabahan friends!
may this year bring you better and more bountiful harvest!
*tho i do doubt any of you still plant padi, right? dont count your grandparents ah!*

it was when i was enjoying the beauty of mother nature at Pitas,
three hours away from the famed Kudat - the tip of Borneo.
when i suddenly realised.... i miss him.

*do stop reading from here if you do not like me being slightly emo*

i miss the times when i had with him,
talking about anything!
watching movies, trying out the oddest looking restaurants,
going shopping...
its been weeks since i last thought about him...
damnit!

how does someone forget the another?
i really admire those who can just get over it and move on
not feeling abit of sadness or missing those times.
how do they do it?

*dont answer this question unless you really can do tht*

there was this phrase i heard over in the radio
just a few days ago....
" you have to date sumone absolutely wrong for you at least once,
for two reasons. one, for experience and two,to appreciate the good one "
*pretty much like common knowledge...it brought out the 'd'oh!' in me*

cant the wrong guy be the right guy?
at least now i know that for all the wrong reasons,
the outcome wasnt always bad.

past in a flash!

2009-05-25T05:17:00.000-07:00

it did occur to me that i've neglected my blog alot recently. and i often thought, omg... how do i start? loads have happened. gosh!

if i recall correctly,

had northern Indian cuisine at Waterfront wit daddy to celebrate bday! *love*

my awesome friends threw me the funniest and unforgettable surprise bday bash for me at my fav hangout place - Fruit Monster! i appreciate it peeps!

celebrated my bday with family+stepsisters wit a night of dancing and loadsa bbq food!

i had a major temper outburst in college at a junior which surprised alot of ppl. but seriously, why be surprised?

even more surprisingly, i decided to do other things than to help in the upcoming orientation... frens knew that i always wanted to join again to help.

had loads of fun with my sister Mandy, who was back fer a few days from KL

went on a super fun roadtrip to Labuan wif zavier n tyler. i likey the speedboat too!

met up wit ronald, stayed at Fuxien's place, ate at chow's restaurant ... amongst other fun stuff in labuan like, satays and uber cheap chocs+alcohol!

first day of a new semester! yay! finally back to books once again! teehee!

i do dread reading an awful lot. so i decided to put it in point-form. ^.^v

more or so... i noe

2009-03-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

in two days i'll know the outcome of the youth camp we're currently organizing. in two days, i'll know if all the sacrifices made by my team and i was worth it. i'll know who are truly supporting me and really wanting to see this succeed.

if i fight for what i want, it'd look selfish but then again, i think alot of people would hv done the same if they were in my shoes. but then again, people are very bias or narrow minded here. they gossip like old women and somehow, unintentionally they go all out to sabotage your reputation.

its not like i do this to solely benefit myself... i do admit it does benefit me in some ways but at least i try my best to benefit others too! and in most situations, i let others benefit more!

i'm actually getting lost. no longer encouraged or motivated or even interested to be involved in anything, even in planning or being a leader. being accused of being selfish or inconsiderate of others, hurts like hell. i wished i wasn't the chairperson/president/leader in the first place. but then again, its inevitable right? for years, i've tried being the follower... it just nvr worked... i'm just slightly discouraged and more likely, emo. hahaha...

i see no wrong in it

2009-02-22T05:53:00.000-08:00

i think its sumthing to be happy about ;)
i reli doubt its sumthing to be pitied, saddened or ashamed about...
i mean, think about it!
single people have accomplished so much more than couples have!
minus the petty arguments and headache of accommodating each others time/space
sure~ some of you would say : its not a stressful! not a burden!
the popular mandarin phrase applies here...
"i'll listen to you now. dont let me catch you complaining later on."

some might call me a hypocrite.
boo hoo~
i've always said : i wanna have a longlasting relationship
but in reality, i've been relationship-hopping
well, the reason i do what i did is
all in the name of educational purposes
>;P

i'm just no longer interested in wasting my youth
no, i have not become some desperate
sick psychotic relationship-love-attention serial junkie!
life's too short, people!
presented with a chance?
me thinks tht moderate consideration is sufficient,
jump on it and enjoy!

my theory is when i hv so much to give
why hold it back?
though i still hold on to my principles.
i never said i loved you.

hairy godmother

2009-02-06T01:12:00.000-08:00

"erm... i think i want my hair with layers and thinner?"

"layers ah? boleh bah~ tak mau buat rebonding? kasi thinner rambut nanti rebonding tak cantik! terlalu flat!"

" APA? FAT!?"

"flat bah~ FLAT! apala kamu ni! bukan gemuk! rambut macam mana boleh gemuk!"

"oOoO! haha! flat~~~ how i know la? okok... then u do la. tahu tahu already kan?"

" ya bah."

"eh! oh yeah! i want to cut short abit. around here! " *points shoulder*

"cut short again? tak mau! tak boleh! "

" haaa? wat? cut until here only la! nuthin much la! haha "

" tak mau! tak cantik! last time i cut your hair short, not nice. tak mau! "

this amazing woman,Watty is the hairstylist that i've remained loyal to for... four years? a world record in my books. no other hairstylist had been in my books for more than two visits. heehee! i guess i prefer those who have their own opinion without being too cocky.

Watty had seen my super curly hairy-days back in form four. i guess she knew how to handle my hair-raising probs =) just about 7 months ago, i was in an emotional wreck. i went to Watty and demanded : "cut it very short, thin and i want long wispy bangs." i flopped down on her comfy chair and she said : " you sure? menyesal tu..." one look at my no-nonsense face, she quickly did as bid. i thought it was a job well done. tho she didnt reli cut it as short as i wanted. i think she knew it'd ruin her efforts for the last three years in persuading to leave my hair longer so that she can curl it - her dream wah... so she says la! i think she wants to charge me more then! hahaha!

but i was regretful three months later as the short hair grew longer touching my shoulders. it was a utter mess! i went back to Watty and she gave me the i-told-you-so! grin.

for prom, she straightened and did a sassy flip to one side. just wad i would like! then for freshie night, volumnised hair. so simple but i love! then for the freshie night i was co-organizing, she did beautiful soft curls with abit of brown highlights. i just loooove her! for one of my uncle's daughter's wedding, she braided and made my hair wavy! she's like my hairy godmother! heehe! anyway, i'm waiting for my hair to grow a lil longer to do the have the zigzag layers! or i wanna highlight it purple! or shud i curl it like wad Watty wants?

glamness i antied

2009-01-21T04:24:00.000-08:00

driving a Mercedes, Range Rover or a Land Cruiser to college may sound glam n fun n oh-so-cool... but ladies n gentlemen, in reality it is NOT! i'd rather drive the Toyota HiLux, Royal Saloon, or the Saga!

Why!?

i hate cars that silently exude glam-ness or anything to do with $ when in college. its just sumthing i hated since primary school. i guess its sumthing to do when people expect sumthing from you thanks to materialistic stuff. like today, a junior came up to my fren and said, "eh, tell your friend i wanna drive her car le! " that is just one of the many examples...

honestly, i dunno if i shud feel insulted or proud or... i just dont feel good. i'd just rather not drive these cars! i guess i'm still very much in love with my first car, the Proton Wira. hehehe! no stress no fuss nothing. it's like i can trash the darn thing if i wanted to and it wont hurt. if i had a scratch or drove unto a curb, i'd feel so guilt-ridden.

btw... i noticed i havent gotten myself any new shoes yet! GAH! the pain of being fussy and having wide feet! but i got lotsa nu clothes! hehehe... after hours and days and weeks of hunting... sumhow forgot shoes! silly me. after exams, gotta go ransack some of me fave stores! teehee~

extreme opposites

2009-01-08T02:04:00.000-08:00

dont you just hate people that... well, use you? they're all nice and helpful at first, but when they achieve wad they want, they suddenly fling you aside and call you up only when they need you once again? gowd, i hate it.

worse is, when you cant say no to them...cuz seriously, i have no heart to do that to them and heck, i'm pretty much a softie. anyone watched YesMan with Jim Carey in it? yeah... i'm one of the many mad followers of being a Yes(wo)Man!

yea... i'm a really bitter friend when it comes to this certain two people. both of them are EXACTLY the same! they would, as i see it, slowly try their utmost best to become your very close fren, help you, accompany you, and i think all these while, these two were jsut trying to get info and get closer to one another via me... now they've hooked up. yea... both of them are opposite genders! but they're exactly the same! now that they have each other, they seemed to have forgotten everyone including me and our group of friends! they would decline going out with us but when they do have a problem, such as they had a argument or other minor couple-related-problems, both of them wud be hopping/jumping/prancing back to us! wad the f*** la!

i hate it but i dont have the heart to say no. please! tell me wad d F do i do!?

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on a more cheerful note, OMG! SEVEN ROSES?! a rose a day!? madness.... i'll leeave it to you to guess where and whom i got the roses from eh? muahx! <3>

love love love

blood red, orangey yellow, light yellow, pure white, pinky white, light pink and the .... i'm sorry, the light red rose crumbled! sobs!

seriously la gurls! wads d problem la?

2008-12-17T09:52:00.000-08:00

i'm singleand loving it!, so does that make me commitment-phobic?

annoyingly and naively so, there are still some people out there who think just that! amazing really! i find these people just pathetically needy,clingy and of absolutely NO conscience for the mental well-being of others!

i'm personally speaking of two close friends of mine and their die-sastrous relationship. they are BOTH males btw! heheh! i wonder how they have ever gotten themselves such psychotic women in their lives? i mean, out of the millions of sane souls... u had to choose those suicidal and mental-institute worthy ones who lack self-confidence and are way OTT possessive??!

description : the girlfriends constant( more like all-the-time)need to sms, call, whine and complain about everything and anything! they would cry cuz they werent told of a party their men wud be goin, the emails they exchanged were more intimate, the stuff their friends got is more interesting/expensive, or the mere reason of, " u dun trust me cuz u dun tell me everything tht is goin on in ur life and in ur mind! "

seriously?! how do u men put up wit that?! hahahaha~ i sympathise..really! hahahaha i'm a die-hard romantic... show up at my door,give me a buncha roses ,take me to a candlelit dinner in ur car and heck! i'm all urs hunny! but to tell you wad i'm gonna do everyday, then spill everything out just for ur curiosity and insecurity's sake?! then ask for my passwords and check my mobile/camera/email/facebook... just to prove myself? sorry la... thats not proving my loyalty but just robbing me of my privacy to sate your insecurities of ur ever-suspicious heart. just from there, i see this extremely selfish and cowardly person.

BUT~ i do hv my principles and beliefs in the love lane. i'd give my heart and soul into the relationship. trust my guy indefinitely. oh! no sex before marriage... gosh.. the fella has gotta be as crazy and funloving as me! gotta understand that i've got my own social life too! dun suffocate me with all the sms and calls and dun ever touch my family!

sure, its nice to have sumone to love and loved in return but... dun mollycoodle the fella to death! i'd die if my boyfren wud sms me abt my whereabouts,go into depression cuz they forgot their daily MSN chat/appointment , or have mini tantrums.

my personal opinion is, all u need now in life is a religion, family and friends. cuz love will eventually come later in life. why not enjoy life wit friends? minus all the headache and emotional turmoil. besides, wad more can a boyfren do? hehehe~

cant help but keep advising my frens to believe that... maybe thts cuz i'm a lil too independant and wild-at-heart? i hate being stifled by age-old traditions and taboos. yawn. i can be absolutely naughty wild crazy bitchy but i still hold on to the golden rule: no smoke,drugs nor sex. i do drink(never gotten drunk) but its only for the social part, the clubbing part is just for the love of getting all dressed up and dancing with friends, the dangerous driving? hehehe... just for the speeding fun of it. i love cars,the way different cars perform and recently, i just got over my love for drifting... shoot me! hahah~ price of tyres and fuel is "no play-play"! now that i am paying for my own college education and all. sigh. dun u just love growing up? thank goodness daddy is more than happy to let me use any of the cars! hehe!

i havent found the right guy to fit in my uber busy life just yet. besides, men at this age arent reli matured huh? heheh! give them a few more years and they'll be considerable potential candidates. and my standards arent unrealistically high, plus! i'm not the typical desperate-clingy-fragile gurls. life was meant to be a fun learning process. i hv no time fer this kinda slow-down and tame-me shyt. xp

can u handle me?

so long dear fren.

2008-12-02T10:41:00.000-08:00

ben? i miss you ben. i will miss you. i'll always be missing you ..... owh shucks... now i'm getting all teary... *sniffles*

no lah people. he's NOT dead!

just going to continue his studies in the States. there goes my best fwen... that lil maggot.. God knows when is the next time i see that fello. sigh...

now who da hell am i gonna irritate and gossip with in the middle of the night or early morn!?

more yummerlicious *scandalous* details/past memories in my private blog.see u on the other side , precioussss! xoxo

stay wif me

2008-11-25T01:24:00.000-08:00

with the upcoming fundraiser event, sports day,lecturers day and xmas charity visit, its amazing i can survive for the last two weeks with only four or if i'm lucky, six hours of sleep! honestly, i'm so exhausted. but i just need to hang on for just a lil while longer- until the 13th of December, that is! ^&$$%^$&^%*&#$!@# yeah... apart from that, i'm juggling studies, helping out in dad's company, and tutoring lil kids.

i'm pretty sure i'd laugh at the next person who tells me, "i wanna be just like u! ur so lucky! i wish i was just like you!" and its reli weird, those people dun noe wad is it like being busy nor have i ever seen them try to involve themselves in any events! enuff sed.

theres a bad habit i've got which i've not yet to overcome. i cant say NO. i cant say no to people needing a ride back home even tho its out of the way or even, need help or financial aid. yeaps... baaad habits. hehehe! i tried. really. i guess i'm just a bit too softhearted. i look damn tough right? guess wad? ur pretty darn wrong. haha~

snippets

2008-11-08T03:14:00.000-08:00

havent been blogging fer so long! hehhehe! darn busy... d'oh~

before goin to KL, i had to quickly complete my assignments, clear up the workpile and start packing! grah~ i got to KL in one piece after enduring my mom ( u noe la, mothers are extremely sensitive, careful and too much advise bottled up and they tend to spill it to u when they hv nuthin better to do in airports) for six hours! i was relieved when we finally got home in KL! i just passed out in bed. hahahah! then lots and lots of shopping! like i've sed over and over again, retail therapy works wonders! hehehe!

my grandpa's 80th bday was really fantastic! my elder sisters did a great job with the video clips, the church group performed a wonderful song for my grandpa, daddy and aunt mei shared many stories of grandpa back in the days, and most of our closest relatives showed up. much to our surprise, uncle fong chan onn came even tho more than half of us sed he'd be too busy to attend. well well well! it was really cool to see him put aside politics and minister duty.

i stayed back for another two days to spend time with Ben but... as usual la. things wud not go as planned and i was stuck at home and Ben had exams. dingbat.... i learnt a new word from him. so i settled fer half day with him at OU the dat after. i was pretty surprised to see his girlfren there but... yeah. it was a take it or leave it situation la. decided to just make the best out of it. so yeah. i had fun just chitchatting with them and took a few silly photos... drank outrageously expensive plain coffee float which i'm pretty darn sure its not worth even half of its price! heck! Starbucks! u guys roc!

a hunch coming on~

2008-10-19T00:36:00.000-07:00

oh kay... so i helped in writing a commentary letter about this other college girl. she's absolutely horrible. she's bosses people around and heck, she's friggin' rude at it! i was thinking of sending it to the headmistress personally but then, yvon+ivy+regina "oiii! i wanna sign it too!" and so it became a group thing... amazingly... at the end of the day, we got more signatures than expected! i was looking at the pretty pageful of signatures. *sighs in bliss*

it was a last minute thingy, gathering as many frens to go support our college basketball team in a open competition. it was pretty good and gosh! regina ivy and i got quite 'high' from all the cheering and laughing. something different from goin out fer movies, shopping,badminton sesh or food wit frens! the juniors probably think the seniors are all mad people. we kept shouting for our new 'husbands' and laughing at the referee ducking the ball, running away from the players and the occasional jeer. FUN~! HEHEHE!

peekaboo? xp

2008-10-07T02:32:00.000-07:00

now that the new semester has started... i think i've regained some sanity from the mad boredom that i had to endure during the hols! haha! some of my frens have called me crazy or 'sot' to be so excited to go back to college classes. no doubt that i'll regret it later on when the assignments, presentations,tests,extra curcular responsibilities and exams come rolling in... but for now! i'm fine... really happy to be slowly picking up the pace to another mad semester.

wad has been on my mind lately:

i keep looking back on how God has helped me thru so many difficult decisions last two weeks...
there's this gawd-awful squeeky noise whenever my land-cruiser passenger door is open... does baby oil work?
oh shyt... where did my claims/petty cash file go!?
there's a ccf camp to organize, lecturers day drama to conduct,inter-college/uni bball comp to assist, two more major bday bash, and... grah... when do i ever learn how to not get involved?!

it was an ice cube

2008-09-29T10:18:00.000-07:00

i might be emo but! i'm not suicidal ya'll! relax and take a chill pill~ but i'm glad i have you guys as frens la.... awww... *group hug*

makes me thank God everyday and everytime i feel so blessed and loved when you guys are there for me, cheering me up or just being there for company or even when i think back on such luvly sweet memories of ya'll!

u noe me la~ i'm very quickly embarassed and would do almost anything to avoid embarassment. so it was the first time i did that... so... yeah! u would know how quick i'd run to hide right? try calling me my horrid lil childhood nickname in front of less-known people, i'd start to become awkward and giggly. go any further than that, watch me blush(if ur damn lucky) or run away! hahaah!

i feel so sorry for my lil dog, Lucky! he's reli unlucky la... i just woke up and walk down the stairs when i spotted him sitting at the bottom of the stairs, looking up at me sweetly, tail wagging and... wads that?! a puddle of pee?! i picked Lucky up and walked him over to the puddle and SMACK! he didnt yelp like usual, instead he growled and snapped! so i warned him ( yes, i talk to him as tho his my lil kiddo) and SMACKED him the second time, while telling him to nvr pee in the hse! he was still growling and baring his lil teeth.. i was getting irritated, going to chuck him out of the hse when my lil sister, Joyce asked me...

"ce? why are u hitting Lucky?"
" there!*pointing the puddle of pee* cant u see he pee-ed here!"
"are u sure thats pee? its white la... not yellow"
"eh... must his pee be yellow?"
" i think it was the ice cube i gave him just now la..."

the poor lil thing! no wonder Lucky was so angry at me! hahahaahhaha!

karaoke kids (suppose to sound like karatekids)

2008-09-28T01:08:00.000-07:00

just a week into this semester holiday and i'm boooOOORED! hehe... i'm getting less sleep during the hols than when i had piles of homework and assignments! plus! i'm helping out in my parent's office, but it recently changed from administration to meet 'n' greet clients and banking! more fun! hehehe! i get to ponteng fer a while, meet up with frens for drinks and then drive around town.

currently addicted to late afternoon walks with my dog,Lucky! and.... going out with good frens at night. gosh... i love karaoke the most la! mad hilarious fun with frens. i went wit three totally different group of frens for karaoke nights and...

i wud describe the one with high school mates was the most relaxed... where there is absolutely no stress to be nice. not that i'm evil but rather, we all noe each other well enuff to choose fab songs together and sing along like kindy kids! heheh!

then the other group which consist of family frens (teenagers only!), we were slightly more formal and courteous, choosing only the songs we're good in. still very fun nevertheless...

finally, just last nite, the college gang... that is karaoke+madhouse. singing oldy-mouldies and rock songs... then mandarin and canto songs.... then u see spagetti and chicken wings?!... people dancing and of course, singing or attempting to... shoes flying and minor wrestling events.

yea... i think i'm just madly hooked to karaoke now... movies and clubbin are orite but i still love goin out fer late night drinks with one or two good frens... missing those who left college already and the 'superstars' whose schedules seem FOREVER packed! *hints* hehe!

i found this really cute top for parties or clubbin but GAH! mom will have a heart attack. plus, she'll probably arrange a skinning-me-alive session too. its white with shoulder straps, a few strategically sewn on sequins, satin lines,a tiny bit see-thru at the lower part of the top and.... its got several bias angles! very baby-doll and its long! love these long tops la... just have to think how to dress it properly in order to avoid hell with mother. lol... i'll take a pic of it soon la.

rants. exam in an oven. literally

2008-09-14T02:06:00.000-07:00

wad crap is this!?
i'm telling you, they're out to get us!
simply trying all ways to fail poor hardworking students!
wad have we done wrong to deserve this?!
why?! tell me why?!
they made us take our exams in a hall without air-conditioning!
no lights! wads wrong with SESB!?
they shud either pay us compensation, or
pay for our resit papars (if we do fail la, which i hope we DO NOT!)
or better still, explain to the HQ and give us extra marks for enduring
humid crowded conditions and having our eyesights worsened, thx to no lighting!
wad de eff la....
dah la its my most hated subject = stats ...
make THE MOMENT i've been waiting for TRULY hell.
thanks alot. makes me wonder why i pay my electric and college promptly for.

got tagged! arghhh!

2008-09-11T06:54:00.000-07:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by Pey Herng

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
i wont deny it, i would be dead jealous and consumed with rage. heheh...

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
er... i wanna have a stable high-income job which i enjoy doing for the rest of my life?

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
oh gosh... honestly? i wud like to kick Pak Lah's arse. he's stinks as the PM.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
i would probably save a quarter of it in unit trusts, then the rest will be wisely spent by sequence of = property, holiday trips, cars, presents, clothes,shoes,accessories,food and pets! HEEE!

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
theres a probability... happened in the past. ONCE was enuf.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loved by someone. sounds awfully selfish but yea... i feel more its more blessed that way.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i've already waited for nearly seven years... i guess a few more wont hurt. =)

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
depends on THEIR relationship. is it strong or weak? kekeke... if i have a chance... why not?! i dun wanna live my life with "what if"

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
an actor? or... i think gf... as in gurlfrens! maybe we cud do another version of Sex and the city or sisterhood of the travelling pants?

10. What takes you down the fastest?
temptation.... anger.... bring on the greenbacks ya'll!

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
i foresee myself married with an equally ambitious spouse.

12. What's your fear?
hehe... losing my two front tooth.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
blurdy emo and works only when he wants to buy stuff. like now... hahaha! >=P

14. Describe the person tagged you
pey herng. the fella is a good fren,quite talkative, very funny, has naturally curly (sexy) hair!

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
yawn and change positions, continue sleeping. /

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yup... i'd give my everything.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
hmmmm.... thanks to human nature, i'd pick the better looking one. and thanks to the importance of materiality in the real-world, i'd choose the richer fella. but honestly, i always end up with the funnier,more romantic and goldhearted fella.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
i would probably avoid him/her, when cooled, i would forgive BUT! i would definitely NEVER forget.

19.Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
i'm enjoying singledom! hehehe! but of course, i do have my eyes on one or two...

20.List 5 people to tag

1. olivia ---> is this ur first tag?
2 .joseph--> assuming he does this kinda stuff~ kekekek
3. regina---> stop laughing, regina!!!
4. sara---> cheer up gurlie.. hv more fun and smile =)
5. eunice ---> now u have something to blog about! hehe!

blind? deaf? or plain stupid?!

2008-09-07T04:59:00.000-07:00

this political drama goin on is making me more and even more unpatriotic! honestly! i've always been one to feel content of being Malaysian and have been TRYING to believe in the term "bangsa Malaysia" and motto "Malaysia Boleh!" now, i am fully conviced that i am stuck in a country run by childish/inconsiderate/greedy adults who conveniently call themselves politicians.

i used to think politicians were people who had a heart of gold and should be rewarded for being of service to the masses. someone who can help voice out the needs and concern of the people. i would hv called them modern santa clauses or toothfairy. all you hafta do is be good for a whole year, and during Christmas, he comes with ur most desired present! same applies to the toothfairy, endure the pain of ur tooth being extracted/broken/bitten/falling out, put it under ur pillow and there u go! five dollar note in place!

LIES! ALL LIES..

i see current leaders yelling and calling each other names, threatening to kill, belittling different races, and leaders being suspected of being involved in murder, and corruption. why doesn't the Prime Minister control just some of the political monkeys? i'm actually being nice to label them monkeys when i've come across others calling them: idiots, goons and uncivilized clouts. Why aren't they embarrassed on their humiliatingly childish conduct?

where is the leadership? and why are there civilians who still support these monkeys? i'm at horror and also shock. are they blind? are they paid? or are they just plain stupid?

rojak. misses.

2008-09-03T02:51:00.000-07:00

i just found out : OMG... I LOVE LIL BOUTIQUES~!

a lil late but heheheh! it just happened last week when suddenly i had a whole lot of opportunity and time to go into 'em! HEE! fun fun fun~ shopping with emu, Sarah, Ivy,and Regina. the clothes, at most times are abit too lala for me though... but their accessories and handbags! HEHEHEHEHE! i have to *must!* go shopping after this exam! i'm going to SYSTEMATICALLY go into every single boutique to shop!

i bought this reli nice..er..wait! thats an understatement.... this is by far the most GORGEOUS necklace i ever bought meself! a bit pricey but oh-so-worth-it! heehee! i'll upload the pictures of it soonish.

currently,am actually digging my own grave as exam looms ever closer. business statistics and accounts are not my favourite subjects but yea... *starts humming: i will survive*

i wanna have lotsa beauty sleep! enjoy mothernature by goin to the river/beach/mountain! spend quality time with good frens+Mandy(elder sis)<---- she MIGHT be coming back for the holidays! miss her much!

then will be investing some time+effort+brainpower on a beneficial mini project with Herng (its all hush-hush for now, will surprise ya'll soon!)

merdeka? wad merdeka?

2008-08-24T06:49:00.001-07:00

is it me or is everyone just not into the Merdeka mood? i dun see the madness of the locals putting up the Jalur Gemilang along the streets, in their gardens, or even their cars! used to see it every year! i suddenly realised that Merdeka day is coming up in less than a week and the air of festivity is just not there! gosh... i find it a bit weird la!

when u think about it, yes, u can come up with so many reason WHY this year's Merdeka day or month is not so 'happening'. Political squabbles among greedy and immoral politicians/hero-wannabes. the MAJOR reason why i think i wud be upset : the cost of living skyrockets, thanks to sudden increase in fuel prices.... Barisan Nasional losing quite a big amount of supporters.... yet they 'tak tahu malu' and their leader whom i think is a laughing stock of the nation, i dun feel he shud be given the title of 'Datuk Seri' as Pak Lah has absolutely NO CONTROL over his lil minion or i doubt he even knows wad he is doing!

just ONE thing i'm currently rejoicing about : YESH! Lee Chung Wei won the silver medal! he still did us proud despite not coming out the overall champion. absolute respect fer the fella la! showed true sportmanship and Malaysian spirit! =) rawk on LCW!

still makes me wonder.....WTF AM I STILL DOING HERE IN THIS COUNTRY?!

walking shopping eating.dead tired.

2008-08-12T08:27:00.000-07:00

walking up and down the brand new hypermall - One Borneo is reallly tiring. heck! its new,huge and i dont know any of the shop locations la! forgive me... i hv a very small memory capacity! hmmph! its the thot that counts right?

but we were on a mission! hehehe! Wilson, Ivy, Regina and i went from one end of the city, to the other end just to hunt for the limited edition Espirit watch and a Samsung handphone charger for his daaaaaaaarling! kekekek... sucha sweetie. after losing lots of valuables, terenz was pretty depressed and refused to sit in his car anymore. so yeah... i guess the fella felt awful. so decided to 'employ' three girls to do the shopping. CHEH~ easy job for us gurls bah~ heheh!

easy but damn tiring la! walk walk walk! finding the handphone charger was the hardest. original is RM99 while the questionable one is...darn cheap! the Espirit watch? gawsh... bargaining is bloody addictive! hehehe! the minute i got the price i wanted... i was soon eye-ing every darn thing to be bargained on! hahahah!

it took the whole afternoon and evening. by the time we finally sat down to hv a decent dinner... it was alredy nine thirty. i lied about the 'decent' dinner... we totally pigged out. we called chicken wings, satay, hokkien mee, lo mee and loads of sugary lemon drinks! hehehe! madness la... so much for wanting to stay fit n healthy!

ahya.... but worth it la~ see Terrenz soooo happy and touched by the ultra-simple card we drew in a matter of minutes in the car and then gave everything to her. awww...

olympic+bbq

2008-08-10T09:58:00.000-07:00

playing with marshmellows! lips gone all white too!

out of the blue... with not much reason at all.... a barbecue is organized by Calvan. hahah! it was a surprising event la. asking him wads the reason behind the bbq, guessed d answer? just for frenship. isn't that refreshing? i find it so... curious. ahahaha! how many people wud go thru the trouble of organizing such a thing just for the fun of it and for frenship? not many. honestly, i thot it was so thoughtful and sweet.

got there a bit earlier to help out. wilson n yvon were alredy there dealing with the sausages and crab meat. hehehe... i joined them ... in a matter of minutes.. all was done. yvon left for home while calvan went off to fetch the gurls, i sat at the sofa listening to wilson go on and ooooon about sound systems. hehe! the rest of the guys- kelvin, peyherng, tay, kenny- came and ohmigosh... they were fooling around and got some of the more DECENT acts on photo...

the rest of the night was pretty orite as i hung out with the gurls-terenz, ivy,regina,yvon- taking silly pics and i learnt how to skewer a raw chickenwing. yes... i'm dat sakai. blek! the guys were hilarious and gentlemanly at some parts. hehehe! i'm only referring to... owh nevermind! i like the part where all the guys wud do the cooking and.... the cleaning afterwards! hehehe!

cuz we gurlies got away to watch movie! but... instead we changed our minds halfway, and off to burger king.

Olympic 2008 opening ceremony was worldclass performance la! amazing, fantastic and so blardy well thought! thumbs up and hats off China!

sending cars flying

2008-08-06T18:26:00.000-07:00

i now drive with a seat belt, i check my car lights before driving, i made sure the guys at the office check engine stuff like brakes and timing belts.... am i a chicken or just bloody paranoid?!

no lah.... its just that, in the span of a week, i've witnessed four incidents which involved friends and cars.

daddy's new land cruiser looked like Dr Jekyll/Mr Hyde. why? the driver side looked pretty while the passenger side was totally smashed. apparently he parked at the side of the road at four in the morning to have a nap. the car slid into the monsoon drain thanks to slippery surface. thank goodness daddy is orite... he was woke up in a shock, and when he tried getting out using his door... too heavy to lift it up... he....went back to sleep. amazing isnt it? he slept till sumone noticed his car and called the towtrucks and all! hahahahahah! and at that time was already seven. daddy was still sleeping. funny fella. and the guy who spotted him thot he was dead, and was panicking! hahahahahah.

last Friday, i accidentally threw Calvan off my HiLux. i think both him and myself were to blame. Ivy and i were trying to scare the four guys that we left the mall without them. knowing one of the guys would worry cuz its his responsibilty to ensure Ivy gets home safely, i drove the car to a diff parking space and we hid ourselves by lying flat down! hehehe! it kinda worked! the guys were talking loudly, noticed that my car wasnt at the parking space that i parked in when i got there and were walking around the carpark. ivy and i were giggling ourselves crazy. but... yeah. cudnt hide for long cuz Wilson recognised my car later on. while Kenny and Kelvin laughed it off, i decided : "okayla~ jokes over, lets get outta here" Calvan and Wilson stood on my driver's side of the car, hands holding on the top of the car as leverage. i was still in hyperhappy mode. i stepped on the accelerator(Wilson jumps off) and upon hearing Calvan shouting my name, i stepped on the brakes. he flew off, hitting my side mirror and then the front of my car, then unto the floor. my hyperhappy mood.. totally gone. panic is in. the embarrassing part? i shouted at the security guard "call an ambulance!" and checked Calvan's neck and head then pulled him up. he's okay but starts laughing.... yeah. butt and back hurts eh? an hour or two later, he mutters : " Wilson and i wanted to shake your car la. " oppzie....

the very next day, as i was passing by the Sabah Medical Centre. i saw a new Range Rover Vogue hit another car just after crossing a roundabout. needless to say, the other car was badly damaged while the big chunk of glamour was only slightly dented and shattered his headlights. o wells... the driver cud hv been unfamiliar with the power of the car huh? *shakes head* heheh! i'm pretty much a noob when it comes to driving so i shudnt be commenting on others eh? hahahah!

last one would be ... why do the elderly still drive?! i've got nuthin against them but rather, wat are their children thinking!? imagine us, total strangers see an elderly driving can make us cringe with worry. get them a driver( employed or relatives la!) or please dun let them drive la.... not trying to be cruel to them but rather its just for their safety la! sad la to see them drive.... dah la.. so slow. >;P

absolutely chummy. hmmph.

2008-07-31T07:51:00.000-07:00

being a decent friend is hard enough. i guess i often try to be a GOOD fren far too much. yes, i do have my evil and cold side of me but then again, i'm just being me at the same time. "spread da luv" is abit of my life motto. so yea... i'm cruel but not too bad. i know the limits.

okay... so wad am i blabbing about? pretty obvious though. being a good fren doesnt guarantee you one with the matching dedication and commitment you put into the frenship. with many reasons, i choose to believe there is a simple and logical solution to pretty much every thing in life. same goes with frenship. i was enjoying the simple laughs and fun of a new friendship with other good chums but, it suddenly turns stone cold dead. why ah?

i.could.not.think.of.my.wrong.doing.

after a few days, i decided : okay la~ i'll be the one to say sorry for wadever i cud possibly have done wrong when actually, i JUST CANT THINK OF ANY!

label me naive or stupid, i thot things wud be orite, cuz it didnt. i sed sorry and in my face, was called 'irritating' in mandarin.

like i said, being a good fren is not easy.

sumthing else niggling in my mind is.......
fuel prices are up, everything known to man on the market has also up on their prices. except for air and... nothing else actually. even water and electricity bills are costlier. gosh. wad d eff are people gonna live happily? and think about the average and low income earners?! my opinion---> i think it's the Prime Minister and his ma cai's doing. who cares? they're all multimillionaires! where's d pinch with a less than a ringgit's diff in product prices?

nuff sed

2008-07-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

i looked at you and finally knew.
there was no need to pretend
that for you, i would kill
to forever be with in the end.

why cant i just fall out of love? i think, its true. i'm in love with being in love. but its more of the the love-hate thingy. i dont wanna be in love.

clearing my study table and found two boxes full of unworthy/useless paper! past year questions, lecture notes, calculation rough paper and nonsensicalscribblings... i know i should recycle. but the question is... should i recycle with the college or by myself? with the on-going recycle campaign in college held by the Student Welfare Committee - Green Life, is somewhat... dissappointing. being the biggest and more influential club, they shud be setting an example of how to run a successful campaign. instead, i've heard nothing of the campaign! i did not even notice there was a recycling campaign! it just happened that, one day, as i was walking to the multipurpose hall to join frens for a game of table tennis, noticed my frens sitting beside lotsa boxes.

*pointing the boxes*
"you brought those boxes in? for wad?"
"ha? not me la! SWC de! they want recycle wa..."
" hai meh? how come, like, mou teng gor geh?"
"they also dunno doing what la... i come in also like dat liao"

asking those in the club committee, some of them just shyly smile and said that, it wasn't their project. another few will say that they're just following orders and the seniors seem content doing it themselves rather than share the workload with the freshies.

how odd. i would gladly part mith my workload with the juniors in hope of not only, *i admit it! i'm a bit lazy! haha* making it easier for me but also giving the juniors opportunity to learn how a campaign is run. a banner isnt enuff as publicity. one measly A4 sized poster on top of the boxes isn't enuff either. suggesting - word of mouth. enuff said.

basketball amidst the traffic

2008-07-14T05:46:00.000-07:00

i'm not really into watching every new movie in the cinema, with more than five tagging along. i prefer going out once or twice a month with just two or three close frens.

maybe the teenage craving of supreme popularity is coming to an end? now, i'd rather relax on the couch at home or at the back of the fourwheel drive at the beach, with a fren or two, laugh and talk or just read a book with my mp3. in class... i'd rather just sit with a laidback friend, rather than to hang out and form a noisy, up to no good, notorious rich/famous clique. i'm tired of keeping up with the gossips and late night out. i'm tired of rebelling and trying to be so strong.

the perks? a happier and simpler me. i feel more relaxed than ever before. ok... i'll quit talking abt my 'then' and 'now' crap.

my first celeb crush? ---> Jason Behr iloveyou!

(had a majormajormajormajorMAJOR crush on this fella even when he was still in Roswell!) omg... the hunk is hot! hahah! the word HUNK alredy means hot fella... i simply had to add the word hot! he's just absolutely yummy! heheh!

the movie D-Wars (dragon wars) sucked big time. it was a horrid horrid blend of east+west, technology and bygone eras, love from the past life... yawn.... snore...vomits... i fell asleep imagine this star-wars looking fella being hit by a car twice and when he's laying down on the road, he mutters: shyt( in the star war roughened voice.) then there was not single DRAGON in sight for the whole one hour and a half... until the last fifteen minutes of the movie. showing a dragon rawring and belching fire before flying off to heaven. disappointing la i tell u. i was whining and screaming in my head to get out of the friggin cinema. i fell asleep while panda kept criticising and poking fun at the movie. hahah!

oh! and i was challenged to dribble a basketball around the traffic-jammed parking lot on the way home. i was car-pooling with frens when we got stuck in the parking lot jam. everyone is rushing home. waited...and waited for the congestion to ease but still! WHY WONT YOU PEOPLE MOVE FASTER?! so kenny and i accepted the challenge and on the count of three... opened the kenari door, and dribbled the basketball as fast as we cud around and as far as we cud then upon waving to unknown drivers, scrambled back into the car. mad... but fun. imma record it next time =)

bum hurts!

2008-07-09T04:50:00.000-07:00

oddly enuff. with only TWO SUBJECTS this semester, i am still ... not at peace? i'm still filled with the need to rush... never just sitting still and have a laugh. i'm amazed at those who can just take a day off and enjoy a road trip to the mountains?! unbelievable. or those who take eight to ten days off their tight schedule to join the Borneo Safari! ohmigosh...

actually, thats been bugging me. sumthing my dad said just a a few days ago... "sit back, relax and enjoy the simple things in life." thinking about it... i guess... i, too often aim for the big prize... always forgetting to set aside sum time to relax and just.. ENJOY. my mistake wud be when i was in the committee fer orientation 08. i was stressed out and always taking up more tasks and rushing all around. i forgot that it was sumthing to be enjoyed rather than to be slaved away. maybe... in a way, i was just keeping myself busy. i don wanna think about other depressing stuff. hahah~

now, i'm on sum kinda practical course to be a more relaxed person. i AM trying la! hahah~ according to my coursemates Panda and Dona, i'm always in a panic-mode. " WHERE GOTTTT?! " I screeched in protest. and their reply? " you see? thats wad i mean " argh.. testing my patience ya'all!

i'm deprived of the following :

shopping! i dun care if its shoes, underwear or cars! BRING ME! if my schedule permits me to join u :P
intellectual debate anything but cartoons, math, games...etc
fren-enemy drama either i've changed or i just lost my touch of creating drama?
emotional connection in short, i need a reli good fren or a boyfren.
any sort of healthy addictions my badminton buddies cant find the right time anymore.. replacements anyone?

hahaha! actually its more of " i miss those stuff" rather than "i'm deprived of"
OH! FYI : tripping OUT of ur car is sooo not funny! my butt hurts like mad!

made of Mcdreamy-nesss

2008-06-30T05:59:00.000-07:00

life in college after orientation week and freshies night have left me... somewhat too free. nuthin to rush around, nuthin to worry about, or no reason to be screeching at the mobile phone to the receiving end of the listener. there's NOTHING to do! omg... this is driving me mad!

i was clearing the cupboards and ...by the word - cupboard(s)...yes, i have a rather moderate sized cupboard in my room and a...erm... ceiling to floor kinda closet in the next room for storage of clothes. but.. thats not the point! i counted the amount of stuff i have in there ( considering the others in my sisters wardrobe and in the storeroom?) and goodgolly... i can open a shop to sell all those clothes (second hand, of course)! and i'm betting, i'll have continuous business for at least six months! hahahahahhaahha~

Made of Honor. rocks. hot. sexy. sweet. funny. McDreamy. muahx! Yvonne and i were waiting fer the chance to go watch it, despite the lack of enthusiasm from others, we're surprisingly satisfied. IF ONLY guys like Tom, aka McDreamy can be ordered off a menu! yummy...

i'm trying to be reli patient. i'm trying to be very very positive but... gotta admit. its pretty hard. Christian Fellowship committee meeting was NOT wad i expected. due to the rush, maybe some committees joined due to obligation of being voted or are unable to loosen up and interact with others. thus the meeting went on with only the seniors and ONE junior providing suggestions and stating opinions. and the lack of self esteem? help me! they're scared to even raise their hands up during voting and just shake their heads. i mean, WADS WRONG WIF U PPL?! WHERES D PASSION TO SERVE HIM!? tempted to utter : wimps! but okay... i shall refrain meself from all those noti noti stuff. heh~! i'm still hoping and praying fer the best.

Orientation week + freshies night

2008-06-15T11:49:00.000-07:00

* click the picture to view my photo album of freshie night!*

a month before orientation for the new students, mr tsen was already choosing and fussing over who will be in the organizing committee. after much persuasion, i agreed to participate as a MC. thinking that i would just do a small part and get it over with. LIES! ALLL LIES!

i was dragged into piles and piles of paperwork, running around from lecture halls to the staffroom, driving up and down,burning the midnight oil, shop fer hamper stuff ( not the same as shopping la... so not my expertise!) and wrapping hampers! gawsh... when hv u seen or heard me wrap hampers?! have u seen the presents i wrapped?! i'm the most messy and untidy present wrapper in the world! then i'm also given the task of choreographing the freshie king+queen catwalk and the senior performance. * rhythmically bangs head at the wall* wad have i put myself into!?

but surprisingly, i got thru it! with amazing help from gud mates - Yvonne, Fynn, Pey Rong, Zavier and Pey Herng! ahyoo... wad wud i do without u la? hahaha! Yvonne being the biggest help in everything from hampers and the king n queen catwalk plus the most importantly, the senior dance! and Herng! thanks fer helping me with the choreography of the freshie king+queen catwalk. Fynn, for the use of her home and being the coolest hostess! haha! luv ur homey home! and ultra cute+funny peyrong!

orientation week went pretty orite... with all the expected rush and unexpected screw ups --> forgot to test the video sound effects and the difficulty of the games. there was a bit of tension as groups leaders begin to be very competitive with all the competition goin on. group performance was sumwhat a hit... the juniors seem to be so dedicated to attending practice despite the tight schedule of college studies. not bad... reli impressed.

13th - freshies' nite. FINALLY! after the countless hours of meetings and involvement in preparing for this night, its finally here. that morning, went to make sure we had sufficient prizes only to realise we are two short. dangit... went shopping and wrapped 2 hampers(again!) and in the afternoon, went to set my hair in curls. then off to the restaurant to join the other committee members in last minute decorationsof the stage and making sure everything like the lighting and tables are set in place. still dressed casually until the last minute, then we were rushing wearing out formal outfits and gurls doin their makeup. men... well... they dun hv to do much , do they? haha! i wore the dress my gud buddies bought for me on my birthday! a black silk tube dress!

after that, the whole night was a mad chaotic rush. the committee was running all around getting the event to flow smoothly... it worked only to a certain degree. our performance of waltz,chacha and rock n roll as the opening seniour performance was sumwat good. my dancing partner tyler and maradona were reli great... both made it so stressfree. so yea...seniors! we did great! hahah! no self praise here. it was all about having fun... no stress. the juniors group performance were reli encouraging... got to see loads of dedication and some talent.

the afterparty(12am) at mcdonalds was awfully good, after changing location twice! first it was TanaMerah then a famous coffeeshop, both were closed! football match was on telly but we left the rowdy crowd downstairs and occupied the whole of upstairs to ourselves. yak yak yak till nearly three am... sigh... sumthing just wonderful to remember fer a reli long time la.

i dun read fine prints!

2008-06-07T09:24:00.000-07:00

Part 1: On the Outside
Name : Charlotte
Date of Birth : 28/3/89
Current Status : single.. but not available!
Eye Colour : dark brown
Hair Colour : black and brown(used to be red streaks)
Righty or Lefty : Right-handed
Zodiac Sign : Aries

Part 2: On the Inside
Your Heritage : Chinese ( hokkien+canton)
Your Fear : blood and losing loved ones
Your Weakness : money and I have a very small memory capacity
Your Perfect Pizza : Hawaiian chicken! No wait! Pepperoni! Er..

Part 3: Yesterday, Today & Tomorrow
Your thoughts first waking up : ouhmaigawd! Nine thirty already?!
Your bedtime : varies upon workload and stress levels
Your most missed memory : spending the afternoon reading and playing Monopoly with dad+sisters

Part 4: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke : actually… wads d diff? coke la COKE!
McDees or Burger King : honestly…BK is yummier.
Single or Group Dates : single
Adidas or Nike : NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE! Too many nikes in school tests~
Lipton Tea or Nestea : all da suga! Yucks… maybe lipton? I heard nestea is reli sweet.
Chocolate or Vanilla : Chocolate! Like my old nickname.
Cappucino or Coffee : venti Javachip Frap with extra cream! Yum!

Part 5: Do You...
Smoke : Neverrrrrrr…
Curse : when the situation is baaaaaad.

Part 6: In the Past Month
Drank alcohol : Yep
Gone to the mall : yep! I bought the long awaited Tag Huer watch by Tiger Woods!
Went to Borders : no Borders bookshop here T.T
Been on stage : too many times…. For Orientation week, karaoke and freshie nite.
Eaten sushi : nopers~
Dyed your hair : noo..

Part 7: Have You Ever?
Played a stripping game : wad abt changing clothes in a rush along with other frens in a room? Changed who you were to fit in : if it’s a bad habit or attitude la. *mutters* yes la….

Part 8: Time
Age you're hoping to graduate : 25
Age you're hoping to start work : 25
Age you're hoping to retire: 50
Age you're hoping to be married : after 25? Ahaha!

Part 9: In A Guy/Girl
Best Eye colour : light brown! So sexaaay!
Hair colour : black/dark brown
Short or long hair : whichever suits him. I’m easy to please~ XP

Part 10: What Were You Doing?
1 minute ago : sneezed. Might be sumone missing me..
1 hour ago : drinking red wine wit my uncles.
1/2 hours ago : laffing with uncles.
1 month ago : i….cant remember. Refer to my weakness. Not chocolates!
1 year ago : i….cant remember. Refer to … EH?! WHO REMEMBERS AH!?

Part 11: Finish The Sentence
I love : roti canai and the tarik
I feel : a pimple coming on my cheek! GAR!!!!
I hate : irresponsible ppl and backstabbers
I hide : most of jewelry cuz mommy is gonna kill me if she finds out …
I miss : sleeping till afternoon…
I need : more sleep. Less curricular activities. More study time(yeaaa rite)

thanks to sara... i had to complete dis taxing tag! it would have been orite until i was so curious of the fine prints in her blog, stating to tag anyone who reads it. DARN IT! garrr.... so i tag anyone! no fine print! TAG! YOU MUST DO IT! nyahahah

naturelovers

2008-05-31T04:32:00.000-07:00

i cant remember the last time i woke up at six. yes.. i'm a lazy bugger. i drove my fav car to fetch Zavier,Terrenze and Claudia then off we went to meet up with Tyler and Wilson before going off on a nearly two hour drive out of the city to Kiulu river. i just wanted to go de-stress and enjoy the company of close frens and nature. the drive there was...scenic. and thank God... the weather was exquisite. not too sunny... just nice. heehee!

having the two mad woman at the back of my car is...just PURE madness! hahah! they scream.. laugh...talk...tease...jump in the back seat...

and play/tied with front seat passenger's hair---> Zavier and the poor driver's hair ----> Charlotte. OMG. i have NEVER felt so embarassed in my life! my hair was HORRIBLE!

we were laughed and pointed at by kids and old ladies traveling in a mini van along the entire same road!

for more pictures and stories, check out zavier's post!
http://jiaher87.blogspot.com/2008/06/giulu-tampololi-haha-dunno-how-to-spell.html

* the pictures will be uploaded as soon as i can try making some free time. i will try. hopefully la. soon-ish... and i'll tell u guys more funny silly stuff. river drama. hahaha

freshie fun. misses sumone.

2008-05-25T21:13:00.000-07:00

i think we all did a pretty good job fer the orientation week. presentation and speeches, ice breaking sessions and town explorace... met a few familiar faces! juniors from my high school! fun fun fun... and got to know even MORE interesting freshies... hmm... some of them have reli good attitudes... mostly because they can speak fluent english ... THANK GAWD! hahah! *** hint hint*** the committee shud be rewarded! hehehe! i said tht just becuz i'm in it! a luncheon wud be fun... dinners are getting boring.. wad abt high tea?

shucks... i have to go and buy another dress! cuz the one i have right now is labelled = too sexy. like HELLO!? when did i EVER buy stuff that are too sexy?! theres not even cleavage! its a simple black tube dress! the hems end at the knee! =.=''' and i thought the dress shud be labelled = simple and conservative... bleck.

fashion here is so LALA. i need to be de-LALA-fied. anyone help me... hahahah! i'm surrounded by typical chinese gurls who curl and dye their hair blonde. wear ultra bright coloured tops with minis and boots. tons of eye makeup and wear thick framed spectacles. not forgetting their super-accented mandarin. sigh... why am i stuck here? okay... so i might be reli simple and plain thus sticking out like a sore thumb but shucks! i have the right to complain no? hahahah!

i miss my best bud Ben. i reli do. i wish i had more time to talk ... wish we both werent so stubborn , so full of pride and at times, foolish to start on fights or arguments. looking back, i shud've tried my best to hang out more with the fella and keep in touch. yet realistically, we're both leading our own lives and he's happy now. i'm reli happy fer him tho i have to still go on my own cuz i havent found my soulmate just yet. lucky him eh? haha!

useless government workers!

2008-05-15T03:36:00.000-07:00

madness is one word to describe my short (very short) holiday before the new semester begins.

it began with cleaning up my messy room, which i left to build up clutter and dust since last month! i've been sleeping in my sisters room ever since. heh he! but now... my room is spotless! i threw up a luggage full of old and unwanted clothes, now i've every reason to shop! oh! my eldest sister came to KK fer a visit before zooming to UK fer further studies. sigh. good fer her, she's gonna get her masters in Psychology...then i think she's gonna specialize or.. sumthing like that. tee hee! very proud of her...

but i became her little slave driver. driving her around town in search fer the perfect bday present fer daddy. and we got him CRES spa treatment! the lady was so tired of answering all our questions, asking for more services and wanting a detailed tour. hahaha! i think its the perfect present! a WHOLE day of foot, body massages, aromatherapy and milk baths! and i got mom a gorgeous croc skin working bag! i havent shopped for myself yet ( does two absolutely unique but decently priced silver ring count?!) but i'm feeling so high! ... retail-therapy works EVERYTIME for ANYTHING. hahah!

cutting my Tawau trip short as well as my supposed holiday to the Philippines! all for the sake of my college's Orientation Week preparation and i'm in the committee as well as the MC. but... its all good. since i love organizing events and seeing my darling frens! hahah! then rushing around the office trying to finish up some of my forever-mountain high paper work! wasted two hours waiting for my turn at the income-tax office! really! its ridiculous! how can ANYONE sit and wait for more than one hour for their turn!? and i waited for two hours only to hear the friggin worker say : " sorry ya dik. (i used to think its so disgusting to call others tht! hahah) kami tak jumpa doket ( its the income tax file). mungkin kat atas. " i. was. not. happy. i went upstairs and was told that the file was downstairs. and i didnt wait for another turn, just went to the lady and asked her again, this time : "sorry ya sayang. doket tu tiada di sini, kamu baliklah next week bah. surat cakap next week kan?" apology not accepted. i started telling her how lazy and irresponsible she was. then called my father and the moment he came, the doket magically appeared! so much for the doket upstair,downstair and missing!

random update

2008-05-09T07:27:00.000-07:00

EXAMS OVER! wooot! smell the fresh air! Oohmigosh SUN SHINE! sigh~ salty sea breeze~
drama much, no? teehee! the after effects of imprisoning this lil devil for a lil too long! TWO WEEKS YO!

i.am.a.die.hard.fan.of.games. not just any games la~ i grew up playing board games like, snakes&ladders, checkers, othello, chess, and monopoly! no surprise i got hooked to this board game cafe which i went along with my frens a couple of times alredy... its german-based! everything, including the instruction is in german! hahahaah! the owner knows how to play EVERY board game there! theres like... ALOT of games ok...amazing he can remember everyone! so yea... its reli fun to try out odd looking ones... like some including miniature dogs, chicken feed and cows , then theres even castles and sumthing like heart attack but loads better la~ hahah!

i wanna go shopping! but.... buy wad ar? ahyo... i checked my 'supply' and... to buy anymore, its a horrible waste. LOL. so unlike me eh? i need more accessories! yea... i clearly cant get enuff of that! nyahaah!

i miss genuine friends. people that are there to hear wad u hv to say and be heard... wanting nothing more than the companionship, or just the want to be a comfort for another. so tired of those who stick with another with a motive or the reason of just "being in the group" get me? i might always be seen with a group of people, but i can go on by myself without much trouble. maybe i'm too independent, or a lil anti-social or becoming a loner?

*~love me. hold me. kiss me. kill me~*

the coming killer-subject paper!

2008-04-27T05:22:00.000-07:00

EIGHT CUPS OF COFFEEE! heheheh! had a greeeeat night out with family frens - Bien and family! the night started with loaaads of seafood! yum yum! and ended with coffee at San Fracisco coffee.... hmmm~

oh! it was a ladies night out too! heheheh! totally no guys! so the mothers wud be telling us abt wad their then-boyfriend/now-husband used to do and still does! hehehehe! my dad was reli naughty! and the courtship was simply classic la~ hahahah! imagine being childhood sweethearts and finally getting married... awwwwwwwww~

i've finally got the urge to go shopping once again! muahahah! after coming back from KL, i feel just sooo tired of shopping and would reject any offer of to go shopping except if it was for movies! hahah! now~ i saw something in Charles and Keith that really caught my eye while driving around Warisan Square in search for a parking space. hehehe! something i have been searching and wanting for some time... hopefully its the right one! please o Saint of Heavenly Buys! i'm soooooo desperate for a (size),(colour) ( item) ! hehehe! if its right... and i BUY IT! i'll post it here... chill...

for now.... lemme study! KILLER SUBJECT ON THE WAY! i'm suddenly nostalgic as well... maybe thts y i'm suddenly not motivated to study and prefer to go out to play and have fun with frens. hee! okay la... no more excuses.... gonna start my cramming sesh now. ta~

goodgollymissmolly

2008-04-19T23:54:00.000-07:00

CRIME/MISTAKE:
absence*lazy-nesss* in blogging

EXCUSE/REASON:
exams tomoro*sigh* and ... lots of drama-wama goin on before that.

PUNISHMENT/CONCLUSION:
eh... two weeks of studying and hours of exams...bad enuff la right?

okie dokes... i'm officially in deep shyt. but... the happy kind. hahahah! well, everything is pretty messy and complicated right now. i have lots of studying to catch up to make up my first year final CGPA. which is currently quite low. then! i find myself in another crush craze... gosh! when will i ever learn?! there's no longer five but down to two guys... i'm into both alot.... sigh... ANOTHER thing is! i've been elected the President of the college's Christian Fellowship. big responsibility...*screams* i was thisclose to quitting and leaving this new post but i prayed about it and remembered that i've always asked to be given the chance to serve in His ministry. funny, i did EMPHASIZE the small part i wanted. i didnt expect it to be THIS BIG!? okayla~ THANK U FER ANSWERING MY PRAYERS, LORD! hehe! oh gosh... i'm reli worried about it... am i responsible and capable enuff fer this post?!

laughs at Padini

2008-03-14T02:55:00.001-07:00

six subjects in one short semester...one and a half months! wheeee~ cant ask for more... how absolutely wonderful college life is . gonna jump around for joy~ LALALALALA! that was sarcasm by the way, for those who are slightly blur... hee!

its insanity... i shud sing a new version of "love is a battlefield" to "college, my battlefield" just you all wait for it! hahaha! i might post it in youtube and get phenomenal laughs around the globe!

not only am i trying to study for six mad subjects... but also bearing the responsibility of class representative, current ELS president, retired Christian Fellowship secretary, but NOW... also bearing responsibility of Committee member and Emcee of Orientation Week n Freshie Nite, plus future posting of Christian Fellowship president! i'm still confused... cursed or blessed? hmmm...

***when out with my gurlies for retail therapy***
out shopping with friends when.... OMGGG! HOT GUY! and the guy was in the Blush! lingerie shop! *GASPS!* and we all were telling each other, "he's sooo taken la if he's in there!" but still we just sat there, at the cafe watching( some were outright staring) him at the corners of our eyes... then he came out with TWO paper bags of lingerie... we nearly cried! "he must be married! just married if he's buying sooo much!" that guy was wearing a simple grey shirt and cargo pants yet... whoa...he reli got our attention from afar... he's the tall version of tom cruise smile, patrick dampsey's messy hairdo and who's got sexy broad shoulders? kinda fella... *swoons*

so we went on shopping after our tea, bumped into him again two hours later at Padini's! *screams!* and my silly gurlfren, Sarah went up to him and asked, " are you a model?" and the guy looked really surprised and said " i was a model but now i've got my own modelling agency and work for *neverheardofit* magazine" Sarah being ...just her... "owh... hehe! i thought i've seen you sumwhere before...you're cute." me and my frens ran out of the shop bursting in laughter... i think some people thought we were mad... or might hv robbed Padini's but who cares!? Sarah comes up at the back of us and said " eh! wad u laffing for!? i got to see his pretty eyes and shake his hand le!"

partial freedom!

2008-03-08T19:43:00.000-08:00

announcing....! I'VE COMPLETED TWO PROJECTS presented by my father! woooot! that would also mean : i have more free time for college and some personal life!

after three gruesome weeks of endless researching, typing, editting, meeting clients, discussions and attending meetings, i've finally produced two completed (i must say, professional looking as well!) project proposals,presentations and profile booklets.

i nearly fainted with relief and happiness when dad+partner were pleased with it last night.

i made a promise and i'll keep it.

sadly shattered

2008-03-06T01:19:00.000-08:00

oh shyt. SHYT. SHYTTT!

Char died here...in my fav mush of Secret Recipe cake...

i got my second semester results back! i, charlotte, have never felt this awful since.... forever! *screams*

i begin to think that no matter how hard i try... i'm not going to excel in my college exams! going for group studies worked...for a while. going to the library worked wonders... but still! argh... i expected more than this... okay... i sound angry here... but really, i'm crying fountains, streams, rivers and lakes... i'm devastated.

i'm thinking ---> " how am i to survive the next few weeks of constant nagging?!" and " why must they take my car?!" and "shud i forge that bloody piece of paper?" and " ahya.... lemme just die la..." i scored better than last semester but still... it could have been better. waaay better. now currently in the final semester of first year... guess i have to do even better... or i wud really digging my own grave... "here lies Charlotte, strangled dead by frustrated father, stabbed by nosey mother and laughed at by smarter lil sister" *screams* the horror... omg... i don wanna think abt it!

moster-ific kids

2008-02-26T23:08:00.000-08:00

busy. so very very busy. i'm rushing around the office, trying to finish up most of the work left for me while i was off holiday-ing. it wasnt much of the holiday i wanted but nevertheless it was a holiday. i just completed a presentation of a upcoming project and a new company profile! i taught my lil monster-ific kids at the english tuition centre and they are just soooo adorable. heheh! "teacher! KL nice or not? got present ah?" monsters! ahhh!

following dad these few days got me learning quite alot. basically about what are the other projects his working on and the people he usually deals with. its a bit scary...making me feel like i'm already officially working with him in his company. *shudders*

i had very little time for anything else other than to work from morning till evening. and then i'll do more paper work in the night. * screams : COLLEGE FASTER REOPEN LA! PLEASE! * sad isint it? actually it isnt too bad. this kinda makes me feel like i'm getting familiar with how a company is run. hahah! makes me sound oh-so-responsible eh? really i'm not!

Lucky, my dog is orite! after being sick for the last few days... now, he's the hyper lil mongrel tht the whole family loves. the house was awfully dull without him running in and out the house and constant nudging at your legs for a pet. and he seems to developed a new habit of whining to enter a air-conditioned room. this pet is getting very pushy... heheh!

missing primary skewl!

2008-02-15T05:22:00.000-08:00

gurls unite! marilyn, me, Georgine *at the back* and... i forgot her name... shan hui *in the front with curly hair*, i think... wad la? its been six years! kekek

left to right = don,shan hui,forgot again!,kok thong,dunno,me, georgine,wai xiuan and marilyn
can u see the butterfly tattoo on my wrist? XD

i got a simple butterfly tattoo on my right wrist! while getting that done, i chatted non stop with georgine! hehehe! missed her like crazy! actually... i was so talkactive... we're both talking non stop since she fetched me from my house till One Utama. madness... thats like more than half an hour of non stop blabbing with just Georgine! then we met up with Kok Thong, Wai Xiuan and another fello at the tattoo parlour. then met Don! gosh... they've changed so much... one added on abit of weight *thts an understatement by the way! nyahahah* and the other had a very rugged hairdo. hahahah! i miss primary skewl days la... hahah! when we all were cute, neat lil things. i thot we were having sooo much fun talking about the good o days when they had to spoil it for me by saying they remembered my 'exploded' hairdo back then. it was ala afro la! hahahah! the bill was three hundred sumthing i think... i wasnt really impressed by Paddington's waffle house... maybe my expectations were too high.. hehe!

" please shoot the striped ball... STRIPED ball! if we lose..."

" eh! aren't u suppose to shoot from this side? "

Ooo! i had lotsa fun playing pool! wait.. was it snooker? i dunno la... its the smaller table.i think its pool gua.... not sure XP , i was Kok Thong's partner for the first round and we won! then for the rest of the afternoon, i was with Don. i contributed a fair share of missed shots but we still won thanks to the guy's pro skills! LoL!
Don was such a gentleman to offer me a lift home * thank you lots!* but gosh... i hope his bumper is orite... he reversed into my mad, bias, OTT,unreasonable neighbour's car *serves him right!*. o wells.. at least we got away with it! nyahahaha!

lovey dovey day!

2008-02-13T09:10:00.000-08:00

:) thanks Andrew fer being the first to wish me a happy valentines day via msn! so sweet of you! then i got a few more from Jo, firdaus,maxi and De-ie! *hugs* you guys rock! oh! i even got two from gurls! hehehehe! its so... cute? thanks alot gurlies, Gen and Sarah! muahx! lotsa luv!

gosh... i'm so grateful of having such lovable frens like ya'all! God Bless and hv a great V-day!

and its only one in the morning of V-day! i'm hoping more will happen~! kekeke!

random stills

2008-02-11T18:07:00.001-08:00

i enjoy not being in the picture once a while but rather, the one taking pictures ... be it in shopping malls, in the crowded marketplaces or just a flower beside the highway.

it may sound odd to alot of people, but i do feel a certain happiness in doing so. being able to do something that is so ... free? something which nobody can control u of... and being able to capture a moment in time and natural beauty on a piece of glossy paper...

i'm not a pro in photography. but i believe i dont need to be one to enjoy taking pictures. just like many things in life... you don't have to be a pro to enjoy doing something you want.

red and gold..

2008-02-10T09:01:00.000-08:00

i'm uber happy here cuz... i got an AMOIZING amount of angpow cash! loads of family time, cravings for grandma's home cooked meals satisfied and waaay too much shopping! *insert madly haaaappy smile here*

i'm not gonna reveal the amount i spent on shopping... its abit too surreal to me. i cant believe myself! where did all the money gooo!? i bought myself a brand new polo luggage bag(large), branded clothes, bags,shoes, lots of accessories (yessss! yes! yesssss! love love love!) and toiletries( parfum anyone?).

i got the chance to meet up with ben, my best bud in Mid Valley. havent got the chance to see him the last few times i came back to KL. its been... two years since i last saw him. gosh... i was reli happy seeing him. i'm impressed wit the driving and still, the chun crappiness. went over to Starbucks for coffee. my feathers were ruffled by an idiotic waitress behind the counter who thinks i dunno wad i'm ordering. confirmed with me the same drink four times and worse of all, said : " miss, DO u reli know wads a expresso machiatto?" wtf man! i'm the customer, gimme wad i want la! i'm paying u for it! omffffg... i was so pissed. but got on talking to Ben just fine. i admit i was being a dodo, talking abt myself first when i shud be talking abt him. bleurgh... i hope i'll get to see him again soon. like he said, we shud've pulled an all night talk thingy... i dun think its enuff tho... hahah~

harvest of angpows are reli good this year... shopping is reli good this year too... food and family time, good...friends? owh shyt.

walks in KL

2008-02-03T09:02:00.000-08:00

i feel reli happy back here in KL. i missed the Switchfoot concert but... who cares? my flight was delayed and i arrived home at two a.m. got to see my darling sisters and fav grandpa+ma!

i brought alot of seafood back and had to take abt thirty minutes just to figure out how to fit six packages into two fully stocked up refridgerators. yea... grandpa+ma has two new HUGE fridges ...AND ITS FULL! *gasps* so i had to take out some stuff and rearrange it just to accommodate my stuff. grrrr......

went to church and gosh.. it was sooo fun to see all the familiar faces! surprise surprise! lots of smilling laughing and hugging. owh! i got to see Sara http:// sara-ying.blogspot.com before she leaves fer penang then to Australia! SOBZ! took some pictures wif her... gonna miss her loads laaa! T.T

sat in Caleb's car wit Joseph,Mark, and Sonya. *insert many lame goofy moments here* dropped Joseph home and off we went to Bricksfield to have authentic indian mamak lunch! whoa! it was really something out of the telly! they use banana leaves instead of plates... on it would be rice, three kinda side dishes, indian crackers and soup! its reli cute! i dun think the yogurt with rice was to my liking though... heheh! but it was about trying it out! and they have pickle sauce in red! its reli sour but darrrn! its so good la! but with Mark, Caleb and Sonya there made it more memorable. went off to KLCC, many thanks to Caleb. and Sonya is such a sweet lil gurl la...

there are loads of reli nice furniture and interior decos in KLCC! i'll bet daddy wud've gone gaagaa over 'em. then while waiting fer caleb to come back after dropping off his sister, mark and i went to the Petronas art gallery! fab place... but why cant they let me use the camera to take innocent lil shots?

chee cheong kai wasnt as fun as i thought it would be *a tad dissappointed*... cuz Caleb sed all the pirates have already ran away and some stall owners have the tendency to shout/slap their customers O.O scarrryyy la weiiii~ going around in LRTs are reli fun.. u get to sightsee so much faster and cheaper and.. omgosh, its like a rollercoaster ride, jsut tht ur standing instead of sitting.

if i had to walk around KL again on my own, without Caleb or Mark! i would either :-

get run down by a bus
get knocked by a car
freeze in the middle of the road
get mugged
run away from a begger (he was scary, okay!)
end up in the wrong LRT station
spending WAAAAY more for the things i buy
come home broke, dead-tired and traumatized

i missed grandma's cooking! its so yummy! she can make all kinds of dishes and her soup beats my mo...er, nevermind. i'm chinese, i love soups! she's the best! yum~

small victories

2008-01-31T17:52:00.000-08:00

remember the feeling of being immensely free? free from stress....pressure....stares....duties....stuidies... or demands? just free... with absolutely NOTHING to do! well... the lasssst time i remembered that feeling was... in form three. after PMR. i had a hell-like year.

finally, after nearly five years later, i got it once again. and darn.... it feels soooo good! i've applied for a month's leave from my company... so i'm free from any office duties! woohoo~! and i'm off to KL again for Chinese New Year! i've been shopping depriaved in KK... so... shopping sprees and family quality time! here i come! haha~

i know the feeling of absolute helplessness. absolute despair... and i know absolute happiness. even if its only for a little while. i think its those small lil things that really matter in life. i rather have LOTS of small victories... than a few major ones. i believe that in my life, lots of small victories are awaiting. from perfect happy endings to beautiful disasters.

dead lazy

2008-01-19T06:06:00.000-08:00

come to think about it. Ron is right about loads of stuff. its pretty obvious. i just want a straight answer. i absolutely hate to wait or try guessing. Olivia is sumone i respect. ALOT. for her courage... i know i dun have that courage i need so much like she has got in that particular sector. hahah~ then theres Ben which... well, wish all the best and am glad fer him ;) i'm taking it slow... though i admit i do regret rejecting one of my good friend... *evil thoughts* shud have just kept him as back up.... DARNIT! kekeke~

first two exam papers were... to say the least, tolerable. or more like... survivable... or... i-think-i-will-come-out-alive? i'm jsut soooo worried abt the other papers... like QS?! OMGGGG.... not too worked up fer macro... since i'm okay with it. heheh! no grudges with it. relatively easy compared to the rest. argh! BORE ME!

i nearly got into an accident. THREE TIMES. first one was one the way to college this morn! with an oil tanker... sum idiot wudnt lemme cut in, so... i took the offense. and then it was on the way home after the exams, stupid effing lorry didnt indicate that he was coming out unto the highway. so i sudenly stepped on the brakes... and yea... the car practically burned its pretty wheels...*SCREEECH*. then the final one? i was on the third lane of a highway and the idiot from the second lane wants to cut another two lanes to his left to a small road on the OOOOOTher side. i had to step on it to avoid the mad van... i'm getting worked up. or mad? whichever more suitable or preferable .... blek

2nd

2008-01-14T05:41:00.000-08:00

i was sooo desperate to go fer badminton. actually, it wasnt because it was badminton. i just wanted to go out with frens and have fun. i just needed an outlet... so i had to reli push my girlfriends to go... the guys? well, they're easy to persuade... unless its the excuse of being sick. kekekek! so i got evelyn, christy,fusion and loong! then Ron and Zavier went along as well! *big smile*

it was more of just enjoying the company and loosening some muscles. while having a bite at Damai, Zavier was impressing evelyn with some magic tricks. he's pretty good actually. with a fifty cent coin. he even made evelyn believe he can fly by imitating David Blaine's stunt. John, another interesting fello from another institute started talking to me about national service (thanks to my Tshirt i wore fer badminton). it was fun to think back and tell a stranger abt the good times i had there.

i cant wait till exams over to go back to KL and just enjoy life for a little while. thats before i break the news to my parents that i screwed a subject up for good in year one. gowsh... i can already picture the scene of nagging and tsk-ing. argh... the absolute agony.

pick a tutu?

2008-01-13T21:05:00.000-08:00

gotta focus! f-o-c-u-s! arghhhhh.... of all subjects to screw up, it had to be accounts! yes, i've always hated accounts. all the figures and formats can drive anyone (except for those nerds... ahem! sorry! heehe) over the cliff to their watery deathbed down below. i wouldnt mind if it was any other subject. really. cudnt it be english? hahaha~ it would definitely be more tolerable. i hate the lectures, the tutorials, the extra classes... tests! exams! argh...

i cried after that. i didnt know how i started ... but i knew i was actually talking to olivia and evelyn. i had just turned away from bumping into the two irritating lil gurls who backstabbed me... okay~that is NOT the point! hahah~ then i started crying. and Prinz was there too. being the sweetie, he tried to cheer me up. and my best buds, well, they did the same... gosh. i love them lots. *hugs*

i am actually feeling hyper.... don't i always? i guess... thats just me handling the news. maybe i will feel really bad/sad after a day or two. then i can really say, AW SHYT! EFFFF! AHHHH! *refer to this post Must Do - Self Denial lines for more*

gotta forget! F-O-R-G-E-T! really have to. no joke. this is really messing up my plans. to forget this, is to pass my examinations and graduate from college as fast as possible. forget wad? yes... i shud forget i ever liked a blur and indecisive fello. i mean, how much more blur can a guy get?! do i have to spell it out? gosh... hahah~ it wud save me the heartache and time. at the same time, i shud have just accepted the musical guy that had been always there fer me. i regret rejecting him... now we're back to normal friends but with abit of awkwardness... like they say,"cant have the cake and eat it."

fallen

2008-01-12T05:16:00.000-08:00

now i know how naive i was back in semester one... when i thought everyone was friends with everyone else. i was totally oblivious of the bad stuff goin on behind the scenes.

sigh... like i said before... being backstabbed wasnt in the plan(or in anyone else's) cuz i've made sure that i am being reli careful and nice since i came here. the odd thing is being attacked personally rather than character. i've always accepted criticism or opinions based upon my character or acts. but to criticise on my management skills is really unacceptable when i've been a leader for...as long as i can remember? in school and out.

i'm not angry... just confused. i want my mistakes and weaknesses pointed out right now since they've started it. i've always been naturally curious. so i dun think i can be blamed for wanting to know wad they saw in me to say such things.

i don wanna take sides. but i find that i already am. i follow my heart... and i believe that he wudnt lie to me. there is proof and people backing wad he said about those who backstabbed me. yet those two show absolutely no contrition to wad they've done. still they talk and laugh with me in class as though they dunno wad they've done is wrong. if i tell them or confront them, i noe i will lose it whether they tell the truth or lie.

must do-

2008-01-09T02:51:00.000-08:00

Eight Self Denial Lines often used
8. This is not God's will...
7. I knew it from the start this wasn't gonna work...
6. Moving on now. no big deal...
5. I still have a chance. I'll just try harder tomorrow...
4. He’s playing hard to get...
3. I'm fine.
2. I didn't pray hard enough...
1. I'm actually in a nightmare, waking up any moment now...

Eight things I plan to do before I die:
1. Own a hotel
2. Join the mayhem inside the parliament debate!
3. Meet Pak Lah and give him a piece of my mind
4. Learn how to play ‘chow dai di’ without help
5. Read the whole bible
6. Drive a Bentley/Rolls Royce
7. Travel and see the Seven Wonders of the World!
8. Tell that special person… “ I hate u…but u noe I’m lying XP” heheh

Eight things I could do:
1. Sleep like a pig
2. Laugh like a witch
3. Think like a kid
4. Go absolutely hyper
5. Scream really loud
6. shop till I drop
7. reorganize my life
8. spend more time with family

Eight Celebrity crushes:
1. Chad Michael Murray
2. Ian Somerhalder
3. Hugh Laurie
4. Shane West
5. Josh Holloway
6. Micheal Rosenbaum
7. Ashton Kutcher
8. Johnny Depp

Eight often repeated words:
1. huh?
2. tsk!
3. waat?!
4. ohmigosh~
5. oookay
6. harhar~yea right..
7. amen
8. ya lah~ ya lah~

Eight physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
1.height… gotta b taller than me
2.squared shoulders
3.pretty eyes
4.is hair a physical trait?
5.sexy lips (haahaa)
6.rugged beard
7.cute butt? *I’m running out of ideas!
8. argh! I giv up! I don't exactly look at the persons face.. it's like 20% of my requirements!

bummer~

2008-01-06T03:34:00.000-08:00

i think this shows how i feel right now... kekekee

i'm not in the least an overconfident,whiny or snotty lil princess (am i?) BUT! i'm darn determined when i'm gonna complain. i'll make sure that person will listen, not just HEAR... but LISTEN to every word i have in mind.

ok... straight to the bugger... what i really want to complain now is... my english lecturer. wtf la... WHY? why is he still teaching us secondary school stuff?! past present and future tenses!? sentence connectors!? verbs and nouns?! EVERYTIME i enter class... i'm ready to fall into (almost) immediate irritated,troubled,annoyed and very disturbed slumber.

i expected classes to be interesting (not boring), challenging (not dreary) and gratifying (not unpleasant)!!! i must have missed out on checking the english syllabus when i entered this college! all i was worried about was - how am i going to survive accounts,economics and business math!? now... i have to worry, is this lecturer helping me in revision? or hoping its just enough to get a pass? i might not need to worry TOO much (i'm still a lil worried) for myself, but! wat about the others!? those who aren't english educated?! i dun believe he is of much help when it comes to increasing their range of vocabulary or loving/understanding this language. its amazing how i've suddenly come to dread english classes. EVEN if there was a debate or a presentation!

back then, i would go all hyper, jumping for joy and be filled with excitement when told to represent the group,class or school /prepare for a debate or public speaking competition/ forum and group discussions. now i just roll my eyes, yawn... * thunk* head on the desk, listening to the mp3 or pretend to be listening but am reli just figuring out my activities for later...

the lecturer is either trying to lighten his workload (if there is actually any!~) or he really thinks we're stupid -.-'' it'd better not be the latter.

intersection...

2008-01-05T05:44:00.000-08:00

i wish college would simply mean, a formal and simple place to further studies WITHOUT the complications of friends and silly lovey-dovey baggage. MUST it come as a package?! i'm tired of it.. honestly, may i have a refund? or just revert me back to the basic! i dont want the premium anymore!

i wish i was a small lil kid all over again. naive and oblivious to the any happenings in the world. somehow selfishly absorbed in my own perfect lil world. i never needed to worry about hurting others or being hurt.

" ... do u see him ever admitting the same feelings u freely show? if not, walk away now..." to quote Maximus, my very own genius of a friend. talking to u on the phone is enough somehow... enuff to make me feel that the world isnt too bad for a while.

i miss my best bud Ben... but reli... even a phonecall isnt enuff... meeting him wud need more than a day to get SOME of the things that hv been stuck in our hearts for a reli long time, to start spilling. for now, i just need these two as pillars.

unless things change... unless prayers are answered... unless... yes,Mark, unless i make the pig/warthog swim. and unless the guy suddenly developed sufficient guts to make him worthy of a man :)

battered down

2008-01-02T03:02:00.000-08:00

had a reli boring day in college. dunno why but... i wasnt enthusiastic... some college mates are missing cuz exams coming reli soon. oh gosh... i'm so not into sitting for exams but yeah, i dun hv a choice.

spoke to Wing this morning in the car and during breakfast and found that... i was backstabbed. i'm not surprised by whom. but i'm just hurt by what they've said. i've tried my best and yet... the people i need the most support does this to me. i'm amazed that the people i least expect to gain support were the ones who stood up for me.

i made a promise to change for the better three years ago. i believe i have changed alot since then... i'm not perfect.. nor will i ever be... but with this happening, i hope i'll change even more for the better. reading the bible and talking to Him is comforting...

i wanted to just go straight up to them and ask them why they've said that. knowing if i did that, one would go blubbering in fear and the other will pick a fight. i guess my curiosity got the better of me during breakfast... i shud forget it. but knowing me, i'll still be gnawing on it for some time.

nu year '08

2008-01-01T04:37:00.000-08:00

my very first hour of 2008, was spent with my dear friends - Olivia,Tyler, and Ronald! hahah! at that moment, i was driving like a mad woman in a toyota Hi-Lux down the highway to Sutera Harbour! hahaha! we wind down the windows and yelled Happy New Year! to passer-bys and honk along with other cars stuck in the traffic jam! FUN! heehee! suppose to meet wit others but lines got bz... so lost them! arghhh~

met up with Wing and decided to have a drink at the beach but... was stuck in another massive traffic jam so changed the venue to Lintas! there we met our seniors... they're reli cute, funny...sumwad crazy as well... EVERYWHERE was filled with humans...no shop was empty and just in the nick of time, Ron gets through the busy network and spoke to the rest of our friends... which we lost in the traffic and when the lines got too busy. they're playing fireworks!? I WANNA SEE! I WANNA SEE! so we abandoned the seniors and drove off to the stadium!

i love watching fireworks... just the fun and the sound. Yizhi,Ying,Hin and Loong were already there... just then... loong and ronald gave me a shock with some of the handheld firework... came too close to me so... i felt a bit scared la (yes... i'm in denial)...they came EVEN closer...and i RAN. i think Ronald thought it was funny, gave chase and i freaked out. ran as fast as i could. the fello continued chasing, laughing! sad to say, i was screeching(for help and telling him to stop) and running mad. i locked myself in the car and Yi Zhi joined me soon after. then i parked the car abit closer, after Ronald persuaded me to get over the fear of handheld fireworks. gotta admit.. it wasnt too bad, even if u do get burnt from a spark or two. heehee! so yea... am very thankful to him.hey! i'm not too scared about it anymore! muahaha!

sang songs with Olivia and Tyler behind my car, the other four sat inside Loong's car while Ronald seemed to be reli happy going to and fro our two cars in the stadium car park. had fun on top of the car, laughing at stories of noti childhood. then we all decided to go back Lintas fer more drinks at 3am. had noodles (panmien) and chitchat till 4am. wanted to go watch the sunrise but realised.... where does the sun rise???

having considerate friends, they decided to take Loong's car home cuz they think i'm sleepy and left me to take only Tyler back. AWWWW.... but the more tired and drained driver seemed to be Loong who was sneezing and red-eyed... o wells~ their choice, their life~! muahahha! jkjk!